Huhu..haha...Hectic Week

Starting 12 May….it was like unfinished tasks felled on my desk …..with WCIT , SUKMA and SMIDEX berturut-turut, bertimpa2 minta ditangani… starting that day… office dah jadi macam rumah….asyik balik malam…and the worse part was, 3 hari cuti weekend + public holiday still bekerja till lewat malam…berulang alik dari KLCC and office for WCIT… and now struggling with SUKMA yg dah nak start and without any rest last week..tomorrow dah nak kena pi Terengganu and kijer pada hari sabtu & ahad.. dushhh … and SMIDEX waiting for me right after coming back from Terengganu… aghhhhhhhhhh….May be I need to stop eating Kimchi coz I’ve just starting to be one…sayur jeruk pedas...emhhh. at least Honey Bunny love to eat kimchi..Dushhh..stop that nonsense thought.. I need break!!! Can I? I dun think so coz this is nature of event department.. . Half of the year you will have sunny bright day and the other half with rain …and kadang-kadang…..Typhoon!!! Aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

A Journey to the Modern City of Light - Hong Kong

I could say that my recently tour was the best ever... To the land of Modern City of Light (i give it myself), Hong Kong!!! hahaha ... the best coz the experience gained there was based on my own effort. Some surfing, asking the opinion of others and lots of pray…me and Aina fly off to HK as we called it a backpackers style!

Day 1 (24th April 2008)
Air Asia, AK50 LCCT to Macau 0630 am. After taking a nap around 2 hours, we are now at the LCCT around 4.00 am. After check-in procedure and some coffee at McD, we are on board to Macau. Why Macau instead of direct flight to HK? Because we choose budget airline (our beloved AirAsia) which not yet operating at HK on April! Around 10.15 am, dengan rasminya kami berada di permulaan perjalanan kami ke HK, the flight landed at Macau Airport … Dengan kabus yg agak tebal, baru kami perasan yang landasan kapal terbang Macau di bina di atas tambakan laut, so, u can feel like landed on the sea instead!!
We took taxi from Macau Airport to Macau Ferry Terminal to catch our TurboJet Ferry to HK. Ini adalah salah satu cara paling popular utk pergi ke HK dari Macau besides jalan darat and HELIKOPTER. After 1 hour dialun ombak laut…we all dengan selamatnya sampai ke HK Ferry terminal, running to catch MTR (Transit aliran ringan) at Sheung Wan station to Wan Chai station (the place we are going to stay for the next 4 days). With some tercangak2 situation we arrived at Wan Chai safely. Wan Chai is the most “happening place” in HK. With a long stretch block of building consist service apartment, restaurant, 7 Eleven and most of it are night clubs and Bars full of foreigners. On day 1, we are going to stay with Cory’s wife at her company’s service Apartment before moving to Malaysian Embassy hostel. After some rest, Solat, and lunch + Dinner at a Turkish Restaurant, we took MTR again to go to Avenue of Stars. After some exploration with changing lane between the MTR, we manage to arrive at Avenue of Star around 7.00 pm. The Avenue of Stars features commemorative plaques, handprints of movie celebrities, descriptive milestones, kiosks with movie memorabilia, a towering Hong Kong Film Awards statuette, and a life-size statue of the legendary kung-fu action star, Bruce Lee. And on 8 pm, ada pertunjukan Symphony of Light !!! It is spectacular multimedia show, already named the “World’s Largest Permanent Light and Sound Show" by Guinness World Records, has been expanded to involve 33 key buildings on both sides of Victoria Harbour. Fantastic!!

Wan Cai

Avenue of Star + Symphony of Lights

Day 2 (25th April 2008)
Around 11 am, still sleepy due to lack of sleep yesterday, we all siap2 to go to Disney Hong Kong. Around 30 mins perjalanan setelah tukar 3 train… it sounds complicated but believe me, I actually fall in love with their public transportation! Every inch of HK can be reach easily with public transportation and everything is well connecting! What can I say about Disney HK, a little bit small than Everland Korea and less interesting rides, but who came to Disney to naik ride? Of course to take picture with the Disney Characters … hahaha …
Around 5pm, planning to go back to Wan Cai and heading to The Peak. But due to our tired feet and body but not desire to explore, we change our plan and strolling around Wan Cai area with Tram.

Day 3 (26th April 2008)
Today is shopping day!! Dalm 9 pagi, we all terus ke MongKok area yang terkenal dengan Street Market’s Heaven. Hahaha… area tu macam Petaling Street but 4-5 times bigger than Petaling Street. Yg x seronoknya, my cash money dah susut and Bank is nowhere to be seen…so, dgn sayunya tgk barang2 kat situ x terbeli dek diriku !!!

Around 3 pm, we all balik ke Wan Cai and after that pi The Peak. Yg ni lagi adventures..we took Tram and after that switch to mini bus to the Peak !!! Huhuhu…pening kepala naik bukit tinggi yg berbengkak bengkok jalan dia … but its worth!! The scenery from the peak is the best. U can see the whole HK city from there with thousands of colorful lights during the night times. And not to forget to singgah sekejap dekat Madame Tussauds. Hahaha … nak tunggu ambil gambar dengan artis popular secara dekat…mungkin masih menunggulah kan…so, jus pay and snap

Apliu Street aka Ladies MarketHong Kong city from The Peak Amoi, pigang baik2 ya!!

Day 4 (27th April 2008)
The last day…we wrap up the journey by taking another last trip around Wan Cai by Tram. Sedeynya… and final shopping..again. And again, taking MTR To Sheung Wan, naik TurboJet and another Taxi to Macau Airport. Shopping again at kedai bebas cukai at the Airport …murah sehhh (of course using credit card)…and with 7.50 pm flight, we left our beloved Macau and HK. But as what Aina said, we fell in love with HK at Hello…and if there is opportunity we didn’t mind to stay there… ahaksss … where to put my second hometown, Korea??

TurboJet

Tram

- Bye,HK...Missing u Already -

Does it worth the mess ??

Sometimes life can be so hard on us. The world seems to against us and nobody would care. Even our love ones can betray us and no one to turns to. We feel tired and disappointed, angry and grudge that we keep inside till it leave a black spot in our heart.
It sometimes leads to a group of people become braver and stronger to overcome it, so they are the one who take this condition in a positive way, to be a better person. Others will drown in it, trying to tell the world their anger and disappointment by damaging their life. They are hurting others by hurting themselves. In returns, they are hoping the world will sympathize on them and pleads sorry. But, without them realize they are actually hurting themselves more. And when the time comes, the damages can not easily be fixed anymore or even too late to be fixing. So, how bad the life can be.. Can you actually hurting others by hurting yourself? Do they actually hurt and fix the damage for you? Or can damage really be fixing after it done? And does it worth the mess?

A Heart must be the Weirdest Thing!!!

Sometimes, we come across a question in life which we really need an answer. And most of the time, we live in unanswered questions and usually that we expect one answer that can ease our feelings. That is why, most of us feel disappointed and heartache. And for me, I got my answer yesterday. An answer that I’m not expected but prepared to receive one. Despite being disappointed, I felt relieved. Maybe, it’s just the matter of “yes” or “No” and “Black” or “White”. At least I’m no longer need to be in question marks. Or maybe a heart of mine doesn’t really care anymore ....

A Student? No Longer !!!!

Hahahaha.......Haahahaha.......tepat jam 6 petang, 29 Mac 2008 lepas...Berakhirnya penantian dan lepasnya beban aku sebagai seorang pelajar !!! Perjalanan yang terlalu panjang...sometimes menyeksakan....hehehe.. sound like i'm actually attended a military course jer kan? but saper yg part timer study ni...musti setuju!!

But while driving back home... beside a big smile of mine... there was wrinkles in my forehead when a small voice in my head keep asking, what's next????

Just a ponder

Mengapa apabila seseorang menginginkan sesuatu yang lain dari yg lain, org akan terus melabelkannya sebagai bermimpi di siang hari atau berangan-angan atau mustahil atau kata2 lain yang sewaktu dengannya... Apakah maksud mustahil itu sebenarnya? Adakah ianya mengambarkan sesuatu yg tidak akan dapat diperolehi? atau sesuatu yg sukar tapi mungkin? Tapi bukankah ada yang berkata, tiada apa yang mustahil? Jadi di mana letaknya kategori keinginan seseorang pada sesuatu yg dikatakan"mustahil"? Atau adakah ianya hanya sesuatu yg sukar dicapai, tapi mungkin terjadi dengan usaha dan izin Allah? Maka tidak patut sesorang yg menginginkan sesuatu yg "mustahil" ini dipatahkan semangatnya...

There is a poem ...

From your eyes, I saw tears roll down and I realized that having a difficult life and crying at times... are not all that unpleasant

Unsuccessful love life ...what will u change if u can turns back times

To have a thought of driving without having any sounds from your car stereo freak me out. . Huhuhu..i’m really against silence while driving!!! Oh, ya… topic pagi ini di Hangat.fm membincangkan pasal putus cinta..hahaha … a right topic to recall back the conversations I had with my buddy previous month back…uhh…dah lama rupanya….

My buddy really in loved with this guy… she’s pretty, clever and kind person which without any doubt that other guys in university was lined up for her. But she chooses this guy and end up hurt. However, she is now happily married but talking back about those days, “If I can turns back times, I will not choose to love that man ever”. How about you? Nope…i dun intend to change anything.. That was my 1st replied to her. Why? (This question might pop out coz I’ve been known to have a long history of unfinished love business among my friends). Coz , I’ve done enough. I cried, I get angry, I win back, I reject, I cursed (opss), I forgive and some sort forget ... so nothing more left to be regret and if I can turns back time… I will do nothing to change.

Maybe she had something that doesn’t finished back then. Maybe, she can forget but never forgive… or may be it works the other way round… or actually the matter of finish or unfinished business we deal with… What is the perfect way to deal with this issue? Or there is actually no specific way that we can pick and apply from the text book? What say you?

p/s: To think again, if I really can turns back time…. There is 1 thing I wish to do… I want to give my ex, a really hard punch right to his chest!!! Hahaha .. That punch will be dedicated to my father for changing his mind to accept my ex when his instinct is actually right.

Hidup hari ini kerna pilihan yg kita mungkin buat...

Memandu balik dari kelas MBA pada hari sabtu lepas... lega kerana presentation yg menghantui selama 2 minggu itu telah berakhir... sambil melayan lagu dari radio Hangat.fm....tiba2 persoalan ini muncul...jika dalam satu masa, terdapat 2 pilihan yang dibuat... 1. Peluang untuk mengembara seluruh dunia 2. "Prince charming" waiting for me to say "i do" ... huhuhu....nak pilih mana ya? and without hesistance... i choose no. 1. and while having our dinner (my sister and me), i told her my thought ... and straight away, she said. " That is why you are still single and stop asking why you are not the one who get into 'i do" business". Yahh... maybe she is right... Maybe,the way you live your life now is based on choices that we may choose...are you?

Election !!!!

Election dah nak dekat.....semua orang bercakap pasal election...TV, radio, media cetak...semuanya citer pasal politik.... walaupun aku agak ignorance tentang politik..except for the election... berkobar2 nih!!! But i've become irritated bila wakil2 rakyat ni masa ni lah baru nak tunjuk muka....pastuh ramai plaks kekawan yg sibuk nak tanya hang sokong siapa ah? Pastuh sibuk nak tanya pendapat on certain parti... Parti A rasanya2 boleh ke memerintah nanti... nanti kalau memerintah, jadi "katak bawah tempurung plak" ini x leh, ini x leh... Tapi kalau sokong parti B...rasanya macam dah hilang seri coz dah lama.... agak2 tahun ni pasti A bley menang x? Walalaa .... apa yg susah2 sangat..apo yg pening2 sangat? tanya diri sendiri dan tgk ngan mata sendirilah....apa yg insan2 politik dan parti2 ni dah buat? based on that, buatlah keputusan... UNDI kan di tangan anda.. dan jgn gundah gulana kan diri... jika dengan 1 undi tu maybe x dapat mengubah tampuk memerintah negara... at least ngan 1 undi boleh ubah org yg memerintah di kawasan anda..jadi senyap2, pi lah mengundi ... jgn senyap2 x menjalankan tanggungjawab sebagai rakyat MALAYSIA!!

Terima Kasih, Sahabat

28 Tahun? Setahun lagi umur meningkat.....27 tahun yang berlalu adalah perjalanan hidup yang mengkagumkan.....Tahun yg akan datang, insyallah jika diizinkan Allah moga lebih diberkati. Tapi yang pasti, mempunyai sahabat-sahabat yang disayangi adalah pemberian Allah yang berharga. Terima kasih sahabat-sahabat semua...for all ur wishes and precious gifts. Thanks once again. Love u all...ahaksss ....

p/s: Memandangkan aku dah papa dek iPod Nano tu...I present all of u with roses and loves from my Oppa on my behalf. kekkeke

Obsesi Terbaru...ahakssss

My precious little gadjet that cost me half of my ASB Dividen this year....huhuhuh...so, i just can forget about having a new pair of super sexy and elegant high heel from Vincci+ and branded handbag from Sogo New Year sales!!!

Double Joy !!

2 of my younger cousins get married last week in one "kenduri", a history in our family and to our kampung. After some arguments, we sticked to the erlier plan. Konvoi reramai dalam hari yg sama ke 2 rumah pengantin perempuan, satu kat Parit and satu lagi di Ipoh. Dragging along pengantin Ipoh ke Parit dulu. iskk...mmg nampak kelakar, tapi jalan jerlah!!!

Pagi2 lagi, my Mak Ndak called asking me to be Driver Pengantin. Huh, mana ader driver Pengantin org Pompuan? Bawa 2 pengantin Lelaki plaks tuh.....and finally, 13 kereta memulakan perjalanan yg panjang untuk hari itu.....and pesan mak pengantin lelaki pada aku..bawa elok2 keter pengantin yer...ahaksss....terus aku jadi pemandu berhemah hari itu!!!

1st destination, Parit. it took us almost 3 hours to reach rumah pengantin perempuan. Tok Kadi dah tunggu nak dekat 30 min. Can't wait till all cars reached the house, Tok Kadi start lah majlis.....penuh satu umah dengan org tepeng....keter yg baru sampai, semua kena tunggu luar coz dah x muat umah. Cian Tok Kadi tu, try buat lawak ngan my cousin coz dia mmg nervous sangat but i think he just busy to focus on the akad. Selamat!!! semua bersedia nak makan.....tapi yg x bestnya...keter aku ngan 2 keter lagi kena bergegas ke Ipoh yg akan ambik masa dalam 2 jam lagi from Parit coz dah janji pengantin sampai kul 1 petang!

Lupa dengan motto pemandu berhemah...aku pecut bawa the other pengantin coz dia nak kena tukar baju lagi and jam dah nak dekat kul 12. Sampai dalam kul 1 petang, singgah di Masjid berdekatan dengan rumah pengantin perempuan, we stop to change. Yg sampai di masjid tu hanya keter aku ngan keter kakak pengantin. Yong, pandai ikat sampin biar ader bunga kat tepi ni x? asking my cousin. Dushhh...aku x kawen lagilah, and aper yg org pompuan tahu pasal ikat sampin??? semua pandang2 coz yg ader semua perempuan dan kanak2....dengan muka x malu, panggil sorang pak cik yg baru tongkat motor utk pi solat zuhur, minta ikatkan sampin! wallahh....nak jadi rezeki, pakcik tu terror plaks ikat sampin ader bunga2.....hahahaha..sampai kat rumah pengantin pompuan...hanya keter pengantin jer sampai....aku, adik pompuan aku,pengantin dan pengapit pengantin yg baru form 4...pengantin plaks pakai selipar, kasut kat keter lain....dengan kuasa aku sebagai org paling tua masa tuh...aku suruh dia duk jer dalam keter sampai keter lain sampai coz kalau dia turun jer...musti org start kompang.....x naya??? Apapun...semua selamat...walau sampai abis kenduri, hanya 9 kereta selamat sampai, 2 kereta tinggal kat Parit, 1 kereta lambat 1 jam coz sesat and 1 lagi x sampai2.

And esoknya adalah majlis kat belah lelaki (family kitaorang kat Kampung Pauh, Taiping)..hehehe..apapun, semua settle .....Alhamdulillah.

p/s: Teringat dengan keluhan adik perempuan aku dekat cousins kitaorang yg kawen arituh (diaorang sebaya dan hanya adik aku jer yg x kawen lagi dalam batch diorang. Naper korang kawen awal yer? Laki plaks tuh...tinggal aku sorang jer....Aku hanya tersenyum....dalam hati,"Welcome to my club, little sister!"

KUM - DREAM

I should've been blind, to keep me from loving you
Why did I see the beauty inside of you?
It's too late for me, you've already spread inside me
No matter how I try to wash and erase you, you spread all over my body
Slowly this pain makes me weary
I straighten my back, trying not to collapse
The world tells me I shouldn't dream
I don't be given any hope or love from you
I shouldn't be able to dream, so my breathing won't stop
Instead of leaving me here with you, take me away
I didn't dream, I would be able to live
When I start to dream, I start to love
And matter all become harder to bear
I straighten my back, trying not to collapse
The world tells me I shouldn't give
I won't be given any hope or love from you
From wanting you so much, I become greedy
Now I want to be happy
No matter how I try to give up on you
My eyes always stop when they see you, and dream
Slowly this pain makes me weary
I straighten my back, trying not to collapse
The world tells me I shouldn't dream
Any hope or love Won't be given to me

Ahakssss.....Fuhh ...dushhhhh ...an arrow straight to my heart ..blink.

Back Again From Monsoon Cup 2007

I'm back again to KL after 12 days away to Kuala Terengganu. Huhuhuh..it might be my last event coz next year, Group Marketing will no more exist! erkkk.....

Oh, ya! Terengganu.....Terengganu...besides the event itself, i loved Kuala Terengganu actually. For the sea..... i wish i can have my house there instead.... and i bet, i knew a lot of where to find good food at Terengganu (kalah jie!!...hehhehe) ....and not to forget, new friends so i can plan my next trip there with their help!! anybody, nak pi candat sotong next year? just inform me, k....

and for now, i'm enjoying my time at my "no work anymore" office ...and eargerly waiting for my year end trip ........hohohohoh ........

------Just me and the beach, relaxing-------

Are u Korean Drama/Movie Addicted

Just take a few seconds and answer these questions…



If u answer YES to most of it…Just admit that u are addicted to K-Drama/Movie!

Me?

Hahahaha…Yes, I am! I’m the hardcore! I just take 3-4 hours sleep and watch Korean drama/movie for most of my weekend. My laptop running 24/7 downloading but I’m not checking the fan-sub coz I have website which uploading Korean drama/movie with sub! Do I neglecting my responsibility? Yups, if talking lesser to my sister, and refuse to fulfill any invitation from my friends is consider irresponsible. And for the last question……emhhh….i’m not waiting for 2nd generation chaebol….but who can resist dreaming about one after u watched their drama…..but hey!! Prince charming do exist !!

Sleepless Night

Somehow through the days
I don't give in
I hide my tears
That wait within
Oh but then through sleepless nights
I cry again
Please end these sleepless nights for me

Monsoon Cup 2007 Side Recee

Fuhh...salah plan masa....haha...aku hampir teringgal flight aku pagi semalam...muka dah pucat....30 min sebelum flight berlepas...aku baru sampai KL Sentral and gate dah tutup....nasib dapat lepas...pastuh kena pi gate A7 plaks...ujung x ingat..Last call for passenger MH bla..bla to Kuala Terengganu....waaa....aku siap berlari ke gate A7...pedulilah apa org nak kata...bukan aku jumpa diorang dah......nasib sempat....tapi ngan muka merah & tercungap2....aku dengan izin Allah berjaya naik kapal terbang ke Terengganu.....Alhamdulillah....

Laut...Laut...waaaa...bestnya......Breakfast menghadap laut...Lunch menghadap laut....hahah..i'm in world's heaven .....If i can have this kind of life...I will not asked for more....

So, i will be in Terengganu for a week end of this month.....insyallah. Will learn something new, Sailing!!! So, Monsoon Cup 2007....Wait for me !!!

Aku Marah!!!

Aku rasa marah betoi!! Marah pagi2 nih!!! Aku tension ngan Rezzen......waaaa......aku tinggal 1 paper jer utk habiskan MBA aku yg dah dragging skit punya lama...lama x hingat !!! Aku mmg hangat ngan depa dari sebelum puasa....pastuh dia bley beritahu aku....last paper tu aku leh ambik Feb 2008!!!! Feb 2008???? waaaaaa........Gilos...Gilos....Gilossss

Aidilfitri 2007

Ini tahun ke 27 aku sambut Raya.....Harapnya masih diizinkan Allah untuk sambut Ramadhan dan Aidilfitri tahun hadapan.Emhhh...basically, raya tahun ni mmg sama jer ngan tahun sebelumnya......Tapi yg different skit ialah :

1. Tahun ni mak aku telah membeli set sofa baru yg agak "gah" tapi asyik bertutup ngan kain coz kucing kat umah asyik nak cakar..hehehe...x sesuai!! Langsir x jahit yg baru coz anak dara mak hanya sampai kat umah 2 hari sebelum raya.

2. Adik laki aku yg 2nd last kena marah ngan ayah aku 2 hari sebelum raya coz x balik straight ke umah dari hostel.....iskk..isskkk..merayap ngan kekawan dia kat ipoh

3. Tapi mamat tu jugalah yg tiba2 tahu anyam ketupat!! huhuhu....bukan apa, keluarga aku semua x reti anyam ketupat except ketupat palas....so, tahun ni kami ader ketupat nasi atas meja ngan kuah kacang..heheh

4. Tahun ni aku beli bunga api ngan mercun, so excitedlah kitaorang main memalam raya tuh....ngalah budak kecik!

5. Tahun ni banyak kuih raya coz aku ngan adik aku banyak main "tunjuk" kat KL.

6. Open House kat umah aku di raya ke-2 (mmg tradisi) ada terima kunjungan sanak saudara yg jauh yg tahun sebelumnya x pernah datang

7. Tapi yg teruknya ialah tahun ni, tiba2 makcik2 aku ngan pakcik aku even cousins aku sebok tanya bila nak makan "nasi minyak" aku...huhuhu...depa tahu x aku mmg x masak nasi minyak raya2 ni..hahaha.....cis2...aku tahulah cousin2 aku yg baya aku semua dah ader anak, yg tahun ni ngan next year nak kawen semua batch2 adik2 aku....huh!! tekanan btoi!

Ini gambo raya kami tahun ni ....







"Ayah aku tgk gambar ni dan tanya..agak2 bila nak tambah sorang lagi dalam gambar ni? hehee..aku ngan tersengihnya....nanti no. jadi ganjil...x lawa!!! dushhhh"

Buka Pose 2007 -Cyberview Lodge-

Rasanya ini tahun ke-2 geng2 kitaorang berkumpul untuk berbuka pose .....last year, buat di rumah Aini.....mostly semuanya ada..tapi tahu ni, nampaknya hanya kami berlima sahaja.....Aku + adik beradik, jie and family, Farah and family, ika and siti....Punya cari tempat nak berbuka pose, end up, kitaorang berkumpul kat Cyberview Lodge.....not bad...the food was good..the view..muhahaha..best2...lain kali boleh pergi lagi.....sembang+ makan + melayan kerenah bebudak kecik aka anak jie + Farah....lupa nak snap gambo....ini jer yg ader utk kenangan.....


- Fahim & Muadz....Sugar collecter !! -


- Hai! Saya Ziyad -


- 2 Ibu orang + 1 Wife to be + 2 Single Mingle Lady -

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Busannya...Busannya!!!! Khamis, Jumaat.....Isnin, Selasa, Rabu....waaaa...Boleh mati busan nih!!!!!

Shopping Raya!!!

Huhuhu...ramainya orang!!! Panas plaks tuh!!! Sedapnya kalau dapat minum teh-O-ais!!...hahahah...dugaan di bulan pose + galak pi shopping raya last sunday!!!

After 30 min keluar awal sebab x dapat jawab 2 sub-soalan paper Entrepreneur last saturday....so, kira nak lepas geram pi shopping raya on sunday. So, pergilah dengan adikku dan Fiza, opismate. Park keter kat opis, naik train pi Masjid Jamek, maka bermulalah journey kitaorg menyelit dan berebut dengan org2 ramai yg mempunyai tujuan yg sama...Dari masjid jamek ke Jalan TAR, Pertama , SOGO...aduhhh..semuanya diredah. At the end of the day, aku manage beli 1 selendang bling2 yg nak di match ngan baju bling2 aku ...angkut 2 tudung bawal and earing...heh!!! ader kaitan ker? Tapi yg pastinya, x leh lawan fiza yg telah mengangkut hampir 8 helai tudung!! Hang nak jual balik ka Fiza??

Pengajaran yg aku dapat.....Baju raya kedua aku akan di beli di tempat ber aircond!!! Yes!!!

Just 2 Steps & I already Stumbled

Do i need to stop or just ignore it and making another step?

"Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off the goal." -Hannah More

Sedey dan sedikit terkilan

Budak-budak tak balik ka puasa ni?

huhuhu..itu pertanyaan ayah aku kat mak aku...anak dia sorang pun x balik bulan pose ni......ini 1st time aku x balik lansung masa bulan pose ni...balik raya terus nanti...bukan aper...hujung minggu asyik ader kelas and after that ader final exam.....

tapi xpa...aku akan cuti raya panjang....thanks to my bos yg memaksa aku ambik cuti gaksss coz kalau aku x ambik...hanya aku sorang yg kijer kat opis aku nanti...hehee..pelik kan? tapi ini kes benar.......

I'm making small steps to someone world

I’m making small steps today…..to be in someone world……not sure about the consequences… But pretty proud on being able to do it….Someone world may be too big as it seen but too small to be in. But, I belief in fate…..It will be when it’s destine to be…..and if not, just let it be and move on.

@#$%^&*

Lately.........

I'm Missing This...


and

Wondering about this.....



Goshhhhh...I'm thinking too much!!!

I’m extremely SAD

I ATE THE WHOLE REGULAR PIZZA BY MYSELF, YESTERDAY!!! FOLLOWED BY 6 PIECES OF SUSHI.... I WAS SAD, THAT'S WHY!! EXTREMELY SAD!!! AND I'M PISSED OFF!! URGHHHH

i feel like eating...but i already overweight!!!

huhuhuhu...for almost 27 years breathing......never in my entire life till this year that people call me "gemuk". Selalunya org akan kata, kurusnya, kacang panjang, playwood...entah aper2 lagi arrr yg refer pada kurus!!!

And never in my entire life till this year have that i really concerned about my weight!!! huhuhuh...i may look like a person with no weight problem!!! But who knows dengan keaadaan sekarang (tembam sikit), sebenarnya aku dah lebih 10 KG dari berat badan yg sepatutnya...hahahah

I care.....but how? i rather go for exercise than cutting down my food or eating my favourite food....no way i'm going to eat only bread, fruit, salad...hahahah..no...no...no....Siapa lagi nak treasure those good food!!!

Exercise...i rather say i have no time aka truly deeply "MALAS" ....

So, HOW?

Can't all those fats just disappear like they always did previously....

Worry...but dun care in the same time... HUHUHUHU

Aper lagi ek?

Aper lagi yg aku suka bila buat exhibition nih? Emhhhh...coz aku boleh jumpa orang yang aku nak jumpa......macam last week......WORLD BADMINTON CHAMPIONSHIP 2007

Walaupun event tu mmg busan dari segi sales...tapi' i'm not a sales person anymore!!!! just assisting sales person ....HEAVEN!!!

Apa yg bestnya??

1. Boleh masuk parking stadium FREE and parking sebelah dewan coz ada sticker Secratariat kat keter
2. Boleh masuk dalam stadium dan tgk game bila2 masa sebab ader exhibitor pass
3. Tgk LIVE game badminton dan tahu saper pemenangnya sebelum org lain tgk paper esoknya atau berita malam !!!
4. I almost forgot about the excitement of watching badminton and knowing the player after Thomas Cup 1992...huhuhu...can feel it again...
5. Nampak dgn dekat but malas nak jumpa pemain2 badminton...Nampak Rashid Sidek, Misbun Sidek, Bertukar senyum dengan Roslin Hashim..ahaksss...Korean player yg aku lupa namanya....Wong Choon Han, Kean keat (heh, lupa nama penuh and to spell) and others....

Apa yg tinggal tanda tanya....

Aku belek2 pass card aku tuh....Selain dgn pass aku tuh, aku boleh masuk Arena, and aper ntah lagi...aku leh masuk Locker Room....ISKKKK..Maksudnya aku leh pi dalam tempat persalinan pemain ker??? auchhh!!! RUGINYA!!!

Can a broken heart really heal??

Received a message from a friend, he just broke off with his girl. I knew he must be hurt. And i knew that whatever i said will not going to fix the condition.

People will always said that “everything will be ok” to comfort someone. But when will be that everything become ok? How soon? I hurt now!!! What is actually needed to be done now? Not tomorrow, not when everything will become ok!!!

I cried with him, that's the only thing, I’ve done. I don’t really know either what he need the most now. But I remembered when I’m once in his condition, I just want somebody to know and listen. I just want someone knew that I’m scared, hurt, angry, embarrassed…….And maybe, we need that someone to replace “that person” who will have no idea of what we felt after the broke off.

Boyfriend, sorry for not being a good friend for you during your hard time. Just cry, if you want to, just piss off if you felt to. Just win her for a last time even how stupid people will look upon you. But if not, you must learn to live without her. We are actually the one who decides what kind of life we want to have with whatever HE prepared for us. Just take your time!!! But dun forget to “wake up”!!!

P/s: To my dearest friends, thank you once again for being there during my hardest time back then, now and in the future.

Tidakkkkkkkkkk

Aku tertekan...tertekan.......impianku musnah!!!!!

waduh...waduh......sakitnya hati gue!!! Apa salah gue? mungkin aku patut salahkan Raja Nazrin sebab nak kawen sangat bulan May ari tuh sampai SBP Ipoh event kena postponed......mungkin aku patut salahkan KTAK kerna pilih tarikh 21 July 2007 utk tarikh baru.....Mungkin aku patut salahkan bos aku sebab suruh aku take over projek tu tiba2.......huhuhu.....sudah nasib aku.....kerana semuanya ini, plan aku utk snorkelling plus shopping di terengganu minggu ni terpaksa di tunda ke bulan depan....bulan depan???? bulan depan pun x leh janji!!!!

huhuhuh...maybe as alternative, bley pi Aquaria and shopping kat jalan TAR!!!!

Emhh....nantikan aku

Rindu pada laut

Missing Him......

Too tired now for pretending to be strong
It was pain to hold back tears
It was hard to act nothing was wrong
Coz everything actually wrong
But reality will forced you to accept the fact
Once he left your world, he will never returned
So, once awhile
I cried slowly, missing him
Took my own sweet time remembering his smile
Collecting strength I need from his love that once was mine
If tears can swept away this burden
And time will heal
I wonder why, I’m missing him still



*SSA*

Singapore...Illegal trip

At last...the big event pun tiba!!!

Being a person yg di "seludup" bawa masuk ke Singapore dgn alasan utk exposure to international exhibition results in :

1. No air travel, only land
2. No advance

Huhuhu...despite all "twisted feeling", half of me really eager to set my foot once again to Singapore after almost 20 years.

Pedulikan 2 sebab "kesukaran" di atas, dengan kebenaran dari bos, aku dgn bangganya cuma menfully utilisedkan semua elaun yg ada ke tahap maksimum especially to balas dendam coz kena naik bas pi Singapore.....managed to booked the most expensive bus ticket, RM 139 pertrip and total transportation elaun will be RM280. HEHHEE..Ini bus mahal tuhhhh!!!

Business Class Airebus

Comparison between Executive and Business Class

On 17th June and 20th June, Aku akan menggantikan mat salleh dalam gambar tuh

The Road i Have Traveled

The road I have Traveled.
Bridges I have crossed.
I've gone the extra mile,
I've come to many stops.
I had a few road blocks,
toward what I thought,
could be the end.
But had to be brought back
a mile or two again.
So when closure comes,
I do know what it will mean.
I'll finally have peace of mind,
I'll be able to feel,think, and breathe
I probably won't believe it.
I'll think it is all a dream.
And although the journey will have ended.
I'll never forget What I've learned along the way,
or how I learned to take it day by day

Huhuhuhu........Pekan

i went to Pahang twice dalam tempoh tak sampai sebulan....huhuhu....seminggu plaks tuh duduk kat sana setiap trip....and claimed T&T x pernah sebanyak nih...lebih 1500 - 2000 hinggit tiap trip.....x pernah duk hotel macam dah umah sendiri..pekerja hotel pun dah kenal..huhuhu....jumpa staff and reseller Pahang yg sama...so, sekarang dah kamcing.....dapat makan lebih banyak food yg sedap kat Kuantan & Pekan (Jalan-Jalan cari makan Pahang)...

Tapi yg best pi Pahang kali ni ialah ...aku jumpa org TNB yg aku jumpa last trip, tapi kali ni kami exchange phone no. ....and macam mana ntah terjumpa dia sekali lagi masa makan malam....maybe Kuantan kecil sangat.....hahaha....hahahaha.....kecil ke? atau ada jodoh?..muahahah

and.....jumpa seorang exhibitor yg muka dia seiras DAWO....cuma versi L size ...huhuhu....bersihnya muka dia!!!

and satu berita yg tak tahu nak category kan as berita baik atau buruk....setiap org ada rahsianya....dan mungkin mereka mempunyai alasan tersendiri untuk berahsia...tapi sampai bila rahsia boleh di simpan? sedangkan org lain dah mula menceritakan....sedangkan org tu sendiri masih berahsia kepada kawan sendiri...huhuhu...mungkin aku juga akan berahsia jika berada di tempat dia...apa pun, aku harap yg terbaik buat dia....

okes, pahang......tata for now !!!

My Life.....

I'm back from South Korea after almost a week doing something i love the most, travelling. To know the people, their culture, food, and interesting places.......i wished i can do more. i'm going to missed korea, but ironically i have no intention to be there again dalam masa terdekat ni. Kalau nak pergi pun, pi sendiri2....tak yah pakai package....Dalam hati, bergolak2 keinginan nak travel balik...but long holiday dalam masa terdekat ni is almost impossible!!!

Once the flight touched down the KLIA, i felt butterflies in my stomach....a lot of it..hahaha....and starting at that time, i'm struggling to cope with my job and study and personal things. Bermula dengan projek Pekan Fest at end of May yg perlu diambil alih, SMIDEX at early June....Final Exam yg baru lepas....Individual assignment yg perlu dihantar before 26th May, and out me go for outstation again for a week to Pekan Pahang, next week. Maybe i need to change my luggage..it almost worn out!!

I'm back and will be off again.....

Fuhhh....after more than 2 weeks tak berada di KL, have a strange feelings when i drove to the office today, felt like i'm not belongs here.....

Yupss...my worked at MSAM 2007, Kuantan. 6 days there, make me bored. nothing much at Kuantan but Ida Tengku ada....waaa..lama sungguh x jumpa dia....1st night, after worked, we all pi umah mak dia.....hahha..mana tahu, dapat makan malam and dapat citer hantu...skit punya meremang bulu roma aku dengar citer mak dia...lagi horror dari "Jgn Pandang Belakang"....masa balik nak dekat kul 1 malam tu, haha...seperti yang Kak Long dia cakap, aku dapat "welcome greetings" bila kereta aku berbau nasi hangit dalam 5 minit right after tinggalkan umah mak dia....and last day, aku pi tengok wayang kat Megamall Kuantan, Wild Hogs after makan dekat Tanjung Lumpur....hahhaa...sikit punya jauh org KL tgk wayang!! almost 4 am, baru balik umah and tido and straight kul 9 pagi, aku bangun and drove dari Kuantan ke Taiping....fuhh....1st time drive lama and jauh camtuh sorang2.....

Taiping.....jika tidak aku kena gantikan Cory meeting di Penang pada 30 Apr ari tuh..musti aku x leh balik Kampung...waaa..rindunya Tepeng!!!! lepak2 abiskan cuti panjang....

and now, while writing this blog, i just have another 5 days to be in KL before i take another long journey away from KL for a week....

Yes!! Yes!!! Feel Like a Bird....

I'm out of KL for a week!!!

Kuantan .....Wait for me ahhhh!!! (working aka leisure mood). That's why i love doing this kind of job... i work and in the same time boleh jalan-jalan makan angin!!!

Bertanya pada diri......Beban yang dicari

Peristiwa semalam membuatku berfikir dan bertanya pada diri sendiri....

Takut disakiti dan dibebani oleh sesuatu....maka meminta pada Allah akan dijauhkan darinya....Allah memperkenannya....tapi hati masih meronta-ronta bertanya, jikalah, jika....keadaan sebaliknya......

Tamaknya manusia, tamaknya aku....Meminta dijauhkan beban tapi jauh disudut hati masih mahu memikulnya.....Meminta luka dihati disembuhkan, tapi masih mencari sebab untuk melukannya kembali......

Manusia amat sukar difahami......aku juga tak memahami diri sendiri.....

Singapore ........aghhhhh

I used to be happy and excited to be in Singapore for our International Exhibition. Still felt the same till last 2 weeks. But not anymore....not anymore. Not when i knew the truth hidden besides the new arrangement....not anymore when i saw his expression...i can imagine myself stuck with those peoples in place where i can't simply run away when i need to.Feel like swimming in a bowl full of leech!!! yarkssss....eiiiiii

aghhhhh.....if i can choose, i rather say no to Singapore!!!!!!

But, when i forced myself to see in positive way....Singapore, i can learn more there..i should fully utilized this opportunity..next year, maybe no more....So, just put aside those people...anyhow, who the heck are they to affect me???

Jadual hujung minggu

Yes......what else to say about my weekend schedule

8 - 9 April Set-up Larian Mesra Polis, MBA class
14 - 15 April PIKOM, KLCC
21 - 22 April MBA Class , Fly to Kuantan for MSAM till 27 April
28 - 29 April PINTAR, Penang (not sure)...arap x jadi
5 - 6 May MBA Class, aka Presentation
12 -13 May Yahoo.....Over the Sea
19 May Final Exam, waaaaa

i'm so popular and fully booked by my work and study life!!!

............LIFE IS LIKE DRAWING WITHOUT AN ERASER................

Yahooooo.......Malay Mail Big Walk x yah bukak kaunter

Yahooooo.......Cayalah ngan bos baru aku nih...dia telah berjaya membuatkan mgt atas bersetuju utk biar Celcom jer take leads on Malay Mail Big Walk...no Group Marketing participation.....it means that i can go to Penang for PINTAR exhibition!!! Balik Kampung mehhhhh!!!!! Best...Best...Best...Thanks Martin!!!

Emhhh....tapi boleh ker aku nyibuk kat sana ek? Itu projek si Cory?????

Dating with Nuruddin.....

Missed my first Operation Management class due to contractor delay. Ape ker heinya contractor tu...janji kul 9.30 pagi tapi datang kul 11.....Siapa BOS..sape Kuli? Tapi sebenarnya...malas jugaks nak pi kelas ari tuhh....rushing dari set-up kat IPK, Jalan Hang Tuah....pastuh pi kelas sampai malam..muahaha...busan..busann.....

Kul 5 set-up selesai......balik umah ngan malasnya memikirkan xda org kat umah and xda rancangan tv yg best petang sabtu.....terus call Ayu, dgn plan nak nganggu rehat family best friend sendiri.....hahhaha....But the main objective ialah:
1. Nak dating ngan Nuruddin
2. Nak basmi virus dalam Laptop ngan bantuan Amin

hahhaa...geramnya tgk Nuruddin......Lain betoi dari 2 bulan lepas.....tapi yg x berubah.....still suka tido...tapi aper lagi yg dia tahu kan...itu mmg kijer dia sekarang....huhhuh...satu lagi....dia dah pandai sembang.....

Inilah partner datingku sabtu lepas.......best gaks dating ngan org lebey muda ni...muahahah


"Terasa tuanya.....kena buat whitening kulit nihhhh - muka baru balik kijer tgh panas sehari suntuk"

Bagaimana aku melalui hari semalam - 29 March 2007

Hampeh !!! i think that's the best word to describe what i had going through yesterday.....hahahaha......started my horrible day with a stupid event and its a disaster coz i worked like an idiot (it makes me think twice about my existence in KL) ........and end the event of the day with a broken heart, my crush to that person came to a full stop.....hehehe..i dun know either why it must be happened in the same day and had no relation to that stupid event!!! But its true.....that girl must be his girlfriend!!! "jom balik", he pelawa....By just visualized walking from the convention centre to suria KLCC with both of them......Nooo..its not a good idea.......gilossss....i rejected his "excellence" proposal and choose to do a shopping instead and managed to spend RM300++..........That's the only good things happened that day ........hahahah..

After all.......tomorrow will be another day!!! Yesterday only a history....

Not Normal...

I wish ...wooooo, I wish....everything went normal..my..my.....that holiday didn't help!!!!!! i thought everything went well......started with a heavy rain when we are leaving KK on friday....flight asyik langgar awan dan landing dengan "bagusnya", it caused me a great headache for a day.....running to Bed's house on night to complete last minute assignment..managed to get only3 hours sleep ...kemas bilik yg berselerak dgn barang2 yg still x unpack.......balas dendam tido.....and went to work today....starting with unexpected greed and smile from that person who i tried so hard not to be face to face with (it makes me smile foolishly and cursed myself for it in the same time)...and the rest of my day will be in doom after restructure meeting.....it's only 12 am and i felt like forever.

I'm not praying hard enaugh!!!!

I'm Leaving....

I'm leaving for good...i really hope when i return back...everything is going to be as normal as i wish........i'm leaving KL....I'm leaving a person i'm suppose to be apart off......i'm leaving peoples who start asking me questions which i dun want to answer.......

3 days........i wish i can leave everything but not my assignment!!! how can i forgot that i need to submit it a day after i'm coming back from KK .....arggggghhhhhhhhhhh

If you go away......

If you go away on this summer's day,

Then you might as well take the sun away

All the birds that flew in the summer sky

When our love was new and our hearts were high

When the day was young and the nights were long

And the moon stood still for the night bird's song

If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

But if you stay, I'll make you a day

Like no day has been,

or will be again

We'll sail on the sun,

we'll ride on the rain

And talk to the trees and worship the wind

But if you go, I'll understand

Leave me just enough love to fill up my hand

If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

If you go, as I know you will

You must tell the world to stop turning

Till you return again, if you ever do,

For what good is love without loving you?

Can I tell you now, as you turn to go

I'll be dying slowly till the next hello

If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

But if you stay, I'll make you a night

Like no night has been, or will be again

I'll sail on your smile, I'll ride on your touch

I'll talk to your eyes that I love so much

But if you go, I won't cry

Though the good is gone from the word goodbye

If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

If you go away, as I know you must

There is nothing left in this world to trust

Just an empty room, full of empty space

Like the empty look I see on your face

I'd have been the shadow of your shadow

If you might have kept me by your side

If you go away, if you go away, if you go away..

_Mukhsin OST_

A word from boyfriend.......

Got an email from my penang boyfriend.....hehehe...bertanya kabar....and he didn't forget to asked soalan "cepu emas" ...... and i start mengadu pada dia, how lagging i am on this matter and how hard to find a good man here in KL...... his words comfort me .....

"For your good heart, i am sure u will get someone good. Just wait and pray, and leave things to the one up there....take care my girlfriend"

Take care boyfriend.......i hope your relationship going well....hehehe

Till we meet again and it's going to be pretty soon......miss ya, darling.

Cinta Pertama Mukhsin …Kisah ringkas yg mendalam ertinya

Yasmin Ahmad cuba membawa satu cerita dalam segmen hidup manusia yang mungkin dilupakan. Cinta pertama, atau sebenarnya cinta monyet (berdasarkan cerita ini). Ramai yang pernah mengalaminya, tapi mungkin tidak pernah mengenangnya.

Pemandangan, cerita berkenaan kehidupan kampung, permainan semasa budak-budak.....mengingatkan kembali zaman semasa kanak-kanak yang amat mengembirakan.......Cerita tanpa dialog yang banyak masih mampu mengungkap maksud yang tersirat.

" Apabila orang bertanyakan tentang cinta pertama, sekurang-kurangnya aku mempunyai ceritaku sendiri. Walau jika diingatkan sekarang, tidak banyak yang mampu diimbas kembali tetapi ia masih mampu mengukir senyuman di bibir".

WHen YoU FaLL iN lOVe wItH a wroNg PErSoN .....

Have u come across this kind of situation? There is a guy u knew that he definitely do not fit your long list of a guy you dream about. And in the same time there is a guy who 96% fit into your list and when you see him at the first place, you knew he is the one. But your heart seems to betray and making you confuse when it welcomes the wrong person. It seems that you choose a dark and empty road which leads you to nowhere. Leaving a highway with a lot of light splashing on it and you know that when you follow that road, it will lead you to a safe and nice place. Do we need to follow the heart or the mind? Is there any possibility that this wrong person can turn to be right? Does its really true that human tend to make mistake? Or actually choose to make one? Or in our life actually there is no white or black but only mixture of it, grey………

I Missed my Flight to Korea!!!

Korea.....waaaa.....i missed the flight...hahahah.....

My buddy ika went to Korea last night. After a long preparation, money, korean language and not to forget a korean pen-pal, ika flew to Korea with a high hopes. i'm supposed to join her but with all the responsibilities in Malaysia, project, assignment, night class, weekend class......i just can sent her off with a prayer that she had a safe journey and a happy time.

Ika, dun forget to snap as much pictures as you can and of course to include "uppa" pictures in it. And bring me something that i can't find it in Malaysia but only in Korea ( u know what i mean...wink).

and till next week before she come back, i just can keep watching all korean dramas and imagine myself to be there.........

Korea....wait for me!!! Aja! Aja! Fighting!!!!

HAPUS AKU

Ku tuliskan kesedihan
Semua tak bisa kau ungkapkan
Dan kita kan bicara dengan hatiku
Buang semua puisi
Antara kita berdua
Kau bunuh dia sesuatu
Yang kusebut itu cinta
Yakinkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…
Sadarkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku

Amin Junior is coming to earth!!!

hehehe...Gembira sungguh bila Amin Junior lahir !! he's so cute... so little...sampai takut nak pegang dia ....... x sabar nak tunggu dia besar sedikit, so boleh tgk lesung pipit dia coz dia asyik tido jer sekarang....hahaha....agak2 lesung pipit dia sama x macam Anuar Zain!!!

opsss...i'm talking like he's my own baby..hehe...Tahniah Ayu & Bapa Amin dengan kelahiran anak sulung u all... Aku tumpang gembira!!

Precious little boy, Nuruddin Amin ...... nice meeting you yesterday .....Welcome to this fantastic world especially when ur auntie Siha is around..muahahah ( for sure Ayu bimbang dgn ayat ini!!! ..hehehe)

Le Tour De Langkawi 2007

I'm so tired !!! But still x leh nak ambik book off ari ni coz the other 2 team members dah awal2 cuti. Its been my 1st outstation kat sini..... 10 ari x der kat opis, berjalan dari kulim, Kota Bahru, Kuala Terengganu, Chukai, Karak, Seremban and back to Dataran Merdeka. Muka hitam terbakar tak hingat, x cukup tido coz setiap malam just tido kul 2-3 pagi and bangun balik kul 6 pagi....standby at booth tgh panas terik, kul 5, terus chow drive pi next station yg selalunya kena drive 3-4 jam.....routine setiap hari selama 10 hari.

Anyhow, its a new experiance...even bab x cukup tido, kijer tgh panas terik di hari cuti dah biasa..tapi straight for more than a week and berjalan jauh tu, its a brand new!!

But i loved it! i loved this kind of job ..... but somehow, deep inside my heart i realised something. Sometimes you need to sacrifice what you love the most coz it might not suit your belief or norms.

And something scared me the most......something i should not even dare to think about......but now, i felt that i already involved...i hoped its not true....i hoped it will be swept away by time.

I'm 27 !!

27 ........... I turned 27 on the 27th days in the year of 2007........what a nice combination.....It will be a lucky year..." I hope this year something good* will be happen, murah rezeki, diberkati Allah selalu...bla..bla..." among list of wishes i got. Thank You, guys.

However, i start my day, forgetting my own birthday. Reminded by sms from my best friend. i guessed when we are older, we are not so eager, excited and waited for it anymore. Mungkin kerana ia hanya akan mengingatkan kita betapa setahun lagi masa menginjak dan umur meningkat, setahun lagi masa berlalu mungkin di sia-siakan. Or maybe bacuse we used to it, it just another year pass by, nothing will change.

But when i drove back from my class to Ika's house on the late afternoon of that "i turned 27 on the 27th days in the year of 2007", i told myself how lucky i am for still breathing on that day. Thanks God for that. Thanks for His mercy, aku dapat menikmati kesenangan dunia ini, ibu-bapa, kaum keluarga, rakan-rakan, pekerjaan dan segala-segalanya.

Tapi adakah aku sudah cukup berterima kasih di atas pemberian Allah ini? Adakah aku sudah cukup menghargai pemberian Allah ini? 26 tahun yg telah berlalu adakah telah aku sia-siakan?

......................i cried.....................................

i wish i can do more...i will do more, insyallah.

Pencarian Mencari Teman Hidup Seperti Perjalanan Menaiki Keretapi Tanah Melayu...ahahah

Mengapa aku melihatnya sebegitu? Bukan kereta atau bas express, coz tiada org baru yg kita akan jumpa sepanjang perjalanan except masa pi toilet atau makan di R&R....Bukan kapal terbang coz perjalanan terlalu pantas dan tidak berenti2.

Impian memiliki teman hidup seperti stesen akhir Keretapi Tanah Melayu kat utara nun....dan memulakannya dari stesen di selatan. Sepanjang perjalanan yg panjang dan pasti lama itu, pasti kita akan bertemu dengan ramai orang dan mungkin muka baru di setiap stesen keretapi itu berhenti. Ada yg kebetulan duduk disebelah kita, berkenalan dan memulakan perbualan, serasi. Jika teman disebelah seperti ini, tentu perjalanan tidak lagi rasa bosan, tapi malangnya teman yg serasi terpaksa turun di stesen yg seterusnya. Hati akan kecewa dan terkilan. Tetapi keretapi tidak akan berhenti lama menunggu kita, perjalanan mesti diteruskan. Mahu tidak mahu, kita juga harus meneruskannya. Menanti teman duduk di sebelah yg baru.

Adakala teman duduk di sebelah hanya membantu diri, tidur. Adakalanya pula amat menjengkelkan hati hingga kita pula yg mencari tempat duduk kosong lain untuk melarikan diri. Adakalanya duduk berseorangan tanpa penumpang baru hingga stesen berikutnya.

Dari stesen ke stesen, berharap akan berjumpa dengan teman duduk disebelah yg serasi dan akan bersama hingga sampai ke stesen akhir bersama. Tapi ada kemungkinankah stesen akhir bukan setakat di Utara Malaysia? Bagaimana jika disambung hingga ke hujung dunia? Memikirkan begitu, hati jadi gundah ..........

BLUR

I wish i can cry, i wish i can run, i wish i can shout out loud, i wish i can resist, i wish i can understand, i wish to be far away from here ...but yet i can't and i become blur and confuse.

........The Smile Has Left My Eyes......

There was someone told me that i'm like a star, a bright star. He asked me to be his shining star on his sky. But after a while, he told me that he had to make a hard decision by letting me go. The reason was he felt that he is making me sad and he scared if i'm not as bright as i am before if he continued keeping me under his sky. So, he said goodbye and told me, "Awak, i will be greedy if i still want to make you mine coz you will shine brighter on other's sky". Man, i think you are wrong. A star actually will shine better when it closed to you. How come it can be bright if you let the star away from you.

Pride & Prejudice

Gossshhh.....i wish somebody buat filem berdasarkan novel ni..it will be great, coz story dia mmg bagus. Itu yg aku harapkan bila habis baca buku ni lebih kurang 12-13 tahun dulu. hahaha....i got the book as a present after winning a competition which i can't remember anymore during my school time.

Film ini dibuat berdasarkan dari buku Jane Austen. Pernah dibuat filem for the first time on 1995 but i just watched the second remake on 2005. And due to certain limitations, aku hanya berjaya tgk filem yg aku tunggu2 ni selepas setahun lebih ia ditayangkan.

Synopsis:

The story follows the Bennet sisters, a group of fine young women who, with the assistance of an overbearing mother, are in search of appropriate men to marry. Only the father seems immune to the high drama going on in the household as Mother Bennet strategizes over how to get her brood married off.
Elizabeth (Keira Knightley) is the defiant one of the bunch, struggling against class restrictions and only wanting to marry for love.
She meets up with the taciturn Mr. Darcy (Matthew Macfadyen) and is both repulsed and attracted to the wealthy gentleman. As the two are forced together in various social situations, Darcy soon wises up to the fact he’s smitten with the fair Elizabeth. Meanwhile Elizabeth rejects a foppish suitor, becomes enamored with Darcy’s enemy, and watches her sisters fall in and out of love before ultimately giving into the fact she and Darcy are meant for one another.

Hahah.....its a great story afterall. The story suits the title. Because of prejudice, people will misjudge others. Beause of pride, people tend to hide their feelings.

SOMETIMES THE LAST PERSON ON EARTH YOU WANT TO BE WITH IS THE ONE PERSON YOU CAN'T BE WITHOUT

Long Lost Friends Reunion Week

Last Week was the best week ever.......Perjumpaan dengan rakan-rakan lama.....
1st Reunion: Started with a sms from Sab and bla..bla..bla.....kami jumpa di Mid Valley khamis last week. Aku, Sab, Awin and Gore. Osmet semasa di Penang. Dah hampir 3 tahun kami x jumpa after aku ditransfer ke seberang and diorang habis belajar di USM. Cuma Alin, Kak Ruby and Aini yg takder. How i missed them so much. Bila hujung minggu, kami lepak2 di kedai nasi Kandar Kayu dengan berteman segelas teh tarik pada pukul 1 pagi, di dinginkan angin laut malam Padang Kota Lama dan memandu Kelisaku melihat aktiviti malam di Lebuh Campbell ..... I guess my friends, we will have more great experience together, here in KL !

2nd Reunion: I knew this young man, someone from my past. He knew me too, from the way he looked at me. Goshhh......Din. Apa yg hang buat kat sini ? Last year, i bumped to him at Penang. Dia kerja berdekatan dengan officeku di Penang selepas habis Master di USM. Tapi apa yg dia buat di stesen minyak Petronas Simpang? Aku kerja kat sini sebulan lepas, sementara. Tapi kenapa? Aku baru sembuh sakit, sakit yg memaksa aku berenti kerja.

Hahaha.....i'm a bad, bad, bad friend. Lepas aku keluar dari SMTM utk bersekolah di SMTI after PMR, aku dah lost contact dengan bebudak di SMTM. Tidak sengaja atau disengajakan, aku juga lupa.

Dia tdk secerah dulu lagi, mukanya semakin cenkung, senyumnya tidak seriang dulu lagi dan pandangannya padaku bagaikan mengatakan betapa aku bertuah dan dia tidak. My, how can i be so lucky if u think u are not. Jika boleh, aku ingin bersemuka dgn org yg buat hang sakit. Jika aku tahu lebih awal, aku akan membantu semasa sakit. Jika aku tahu, aku akan menemankan hang seperti hang temankan aku dulu. Jika aku tahu, aku akan berikan hang galakkan seperti yg hang buat dulu....Jika aku tahu.....

Maafkan aku sahabat, aku tidak boleh mengubah apa yg telah berlaku. Tapi mulai hari ini, aku berjanji utk sentiasa ada bila-bila masa yang diperlukan.

Gambate Kudasai! Aja! Aja! Fighting.....Insyaallah, everything is going to be alright, once again.

REFLECTION

Look at me

You may think you see

Who I really am

But you’ll never know me

Every day, is as if I play apart

Now I see

If I wear a mask

I can fool the world

But I can not fool my heart

Who is that girl I see

Staring straight back at me?

When will my reflection show

Who I am inside?

I am now in a world where

I have to hide my heart

And what I believe in

But somehow

I will show the world

What’s inside my heart

And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl

I see staring straight back at me?

Why is my reflection

Someone I don’t know?

Must I pretend that i’m someone else for all time?

When will my reflection show

Who I am inside?

There’s a heart that must be free to fly

That burns with a need

To know the reason why

Why must we all conceal

What we think

How we feel

Must there be a secret me

I’m forced to hide?

I won’t pretend that i’m someone else

For all time

When will my reflections show

Who I am inside?

Burung Kecil.....

Beranikah burung kecil itu terus terbang
Terbang ke tempat yang ia juga tidak pasti akan sampai
Tidak pasti hingga bila ia perlu melanyah di udara
Tidak pasti adakah arahnya juga betul
Tapi yang ia pasti tempat itu adalah tempat yang ia mahu

Ia terbang tempuh angin
Tempuh hujan
Tempuh panas
Terlalu lama ia terbang
Terlalu banyak rintangan

Kadang kala, burung kecil itu hampir berputus asa
Tempat yang dituju tak kunjung tiba
Tempat ia bermula tak terjangkau untuk kembali
Kiri, kanan, atas dan bawah
Hanyalah langit putih...
Penatnya hingga sampai ketika
Tangis dan semangatnya tidak dapat lagi membujuk hati
Hinggakan jika diikut hati....hanya ingin berhenti mengepak
Jatuh mengikut angin.........mati

Tapi itu bukan jalan akhirnya..
Sesekali bukan
Oleh itu...terbanglah burung kecil
Terbang walau sepayah manapun...
Walau sepenat dan sesakit manapun..
Walau perlu menangis..perlu meraung
Hati perlu butuh untuk terbang
Terbang hingga tempat yang dituju tiba
Jika terpaksa jatuh mengikut angin ...jatuhlah tapi bukan kerna memilihnya

Digital Homes : World Habitat Day 2006 Appreciation Luncheon

Lunch anybody? I mean free lunch......rugi2 saper yg tak ikut lunch today at cyberviewlodge hosted by MCMC....All people yg sepatutnya pergi termasuk my boss tiada hari ni...and i'm alone from GM forced to attend it. Luckily Juanda from SmartSchool pun nak lari dari bos dia and Ika yg aku tarik sekali utk temankan aku (sorry ya geng) sudi nak temankan aku...

My..My....the food mmg best....and lunch tu mmg santai...i thought formal sangat...thanks God! Alhamdulillah.

and guest what!! after lunch, kita org straight a way, dragging Juanda with us jalan-jalan di MMU....It changed a lot......But i still remember semua jalan, bilik kuliah and food court yg pernah ada aku dan kawan2 aku dulu.....but now it filled with unfamiliar faces....and all memories once again buried when we left.

My Lovely Kim Sam Soon

I loved this drama so muchhh......coz it give real life feeling. Banyak scene dalam drama ini dan skrip yg diolah dengan baik juga meninggalkan ingatan yg baik selepas habis menontonnya.

Synopsis:
My Name Is Kim Sam-soon" was embraced by Korean women from all walks of life who ponder the meaning of life.What made this drama stand out so much from all others? The main character Sam Soon can relate to most women's situations here, and the actress Kim Sun Ah playing her is not stick thin either.

The drama started with 29-year-old Sam Soon catching her boyfriend having an affair at a hotel. She ends up crying her eyes out in the men's bathroom. A man walks in on her and without a stitch of sympathy accuses her of being a pervert.

This mystery man, Jin Hoon, the male lead of the drama, comes from a rich family and owns a French restaurant, which is where Sam Soon applies for her job to bake cakes. Although the job interview doesn't go according to plan (she throws her taster cake in Jin Hoon's face) she still lands the job. Sam Soon begins making cakes and chocolates that are filled with love, sorrow and tears -- a symbol of everything going on in her life.

After her shocking break up she feels empty, and turning to food, puts on an extra 7 kilograms. She says, "I'm not crying because of him. I'm crying because of love. I knew that love could be nothing even if it was totally mine.Living as a spinster in Korea increases the burden that older women have to carry in society. However, she doesn't try to hide her anxieties and eccentricities. She remains true to herself.

Much to our surprise, Sam Soon falls in love again -- with Jin Hoon. The two characters build a love-hate relationship, representing the typical Korean couple. The rest, as they say, was history.

My favourite scenes:

1. Bila Kim Sam Soon dalam bas, menangis kerana dia rasa yang dia masih cintakan ex dia.
"I didn't realize how ridiculous his promises were to me then.If he didn't make them, I might be feeling better now.Even though I knew it was a lie. I hate myself for believing his lies.Looking at his heartless eyes, I hate myself for yearning for him.And I hate my self reproaching. Losing love is like losing your self respect".

2. Bila semua pekerja restoran yg perempuan berkumpul di kedai selepas keluar dari pub and Captain Jang going through the reasons why there are no men out there.
No 1 Nice men...are ugly
No 2 Good looking men...are jerks
No 3 Good looking and nice men...are married
No 4 Good looking, nice and unmarried men...are useless
No 5 Good looking, nice, unmarried and rich men...are not interested in us
No 6 Good looking, nice, unmarried, rich men who are interested in us.... are flirts
No 7 Good looking, nice, unmarried, rich men who are interested in us and faithful...are gay
No 8 Good looking, nice, unmarried, rich men who are interested in us and faithful and heterosexual and would not lose interest in us even if we are the one who make the first moves...these men must be crazy!

3. Bila Sam Soon bersedih selepas tahu yang Jin Hoon cintakan ex-girlfriend dia.
Sam Soon sees her father and laments to him about her yet again failed relationship"I thought I wouldn't cry over a man again. I thought I wouldn't have to do this after I turned 30. I wouldn't feel my heart skip a beat, or stay up all night to wait for a call, do you know how tiring that is? I just want to find a man who likes me, and not break my heart; I just want to lead a simple life,that's all. What is going on, I feel this chill. I am falling for a man again. If only if my heart is a little stronger dad, I wish my heart as hard as a stone so I don’t feel hurt."

4. Bila dia berangan yg dia pandai menari and try to seduce Jin Hoon but at the end..hahah..

5. When Jin Hoon sleeps on Sam Soon stomach as a pillow

and many more..just too fun to watch it ..jin hoon is soooooooo cute!!!! OST pun besttttt

APA KATA TENTANG CINTA

CINTA......sejak promo tentang CINTA mula keluar, semua orang bercerita tentangnya....when i saw the preview....i already set a standard for that film, lagipun sebelum tu ada tgk SAD MOVIE, filem korea yg lebih kurang macam cerita CINTA, best. But after i watched it, it turned me down. I still didnt like it even after all good comments given by everybody else. But it still a good movie. Bila kita tgk cerita tu, we can see how everybody around us actually fall in love and end it in many ways and how they interprate and treasure it.


APA KATA AYAH TENTANG CINTA

In my family, there is a rule set by my ayah that his son and daughter can be friends to opposite gender but no couple-couple thing till we finish our SPM. We only allow to involve in "love business" when we in Uni and we can freely discuss about it with my ayah and mak.
One day, during my semester break when i was 18, i shared with them my updated and latest news. I'm in love!!! I still remember how happy i was back then. And my motivational ayah gave a word. Love doesn't mean you give everything to them in one shot. Love is when you share and treasure throughout the time. Love can make us be better or worse. hehehe...My ayah can be so romantic!!
When the relationship ended, sekali lagi ayah memberitahu aku. Jangan sesekali kalah dengan cinta, jangan tunduk dengan rasa kecewa.

Mungkin kerana kata-kata itu, sehingga kini walau pelbagai perspektif dan pengalaman aku dengan cinta, aku tahu, selagi aku masih berpegang kepada kata-katanya, i will treasure my love life.
Thanks Ayah for your wise advice!!

Love like you've never been hurt before
Dance like no one is looking
Work like you don't need the money
Sing like no one is listening
Live like today is the last day



APA KATA MAK TENTANG CINTA

My emak is prettier than me...she has fair skin, mata sepet, always smiling, comel, so friendly and talkative.

No wonder mak banyak peminat. But she said, its not really a love story coz ex-boyfriends dia tak berani nak ajak keluar pun coz my opah mmg garang. Just letak surat cinta bawah pinggan after makan and my mak akan ambil masa nak kemas (my tok run a restaurant). But at the end dia kawen dengan ayah,family arrange kan. Dia tak kenal and pernah jumpa ayah, cuma sekeping gambar hingga selepas majlis pertunangan.

However, she always told us how lucky she is to have my ayah to be her husband. Emak akan selalu cakap, CINTA boleh disemai perlahan2, CINTA adalah untuk belajar menerima kesilapan, kelemahan dan kelebihan masing2. CINTA tidak mencari kesempurnaan tetapi keredhaan.
Mak, dun worry so much about ur daughter. i meet many nice and good person. But for now, i still want to search for "him". Please pray for me. Love ya!!!


APA KATA AKU TENTANG CINTA

Love can be a many splendid thing
Has another joy you bring
A dozen roses Diamond rings
Dreams for sale
And fairy tales
It'll make you hear a symphony
And you'll just want the world to see
But like a drunk that makes you blind
It'll fool you every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
Gets stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See you've got no say at all

Now I was just a once a fool it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
I'm sadder but
I'm wiser too
I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

Every time I turn around
I think I've got it all
My heart keeps callin
And I keep on fallin
Over and over again
This set story always ends the same
Me standin in the pouring rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

My Sunshine !!!!

Happy...Happy like a bee......mengingatkannya senyum takkan menghilang, hati akan berbunga....segala masalah akan hilang......Bila matahari menjengah

Bosan tahap melampau kat event 3 hari di PWTC baru-baru ni....apa masalahnya organizer tu, crowd yang dijanjikan tak seperti yg sepatutnya.......exhibitor tgk muka exhibitor yg lain.....Merayap kat semua booth exhibitor yg lain, singgah ke booth Tun Hussein Onn Eye hospital....At first, nak tanya pasal pakej Lasik yg ditawarkan hospital terbabit...Mak aii...RM3000 for both eyes.....Pakai cermin mata atau contact lense saje le jawabnya.......

Tapi itu tak semahal apa yg aku jumpa kat booth tu...My Sunshine.....hehe...kalau tak mengingatkan diri yg RM3000 is too much....mesti aku dah sign up for that package just because My Sunshine was promoted it.....Eager sangat nak kenal dia.....asked for his business card dengan alasan kalau-kalau ubah fikiran nak sign up for that package....and the worse thing was....try ambik gambar dia secara curi2...hahahah.....budus...budus....macam jadi budak kecil balik rasanya......and because i'm no longer a small kids, i just managed to get his picture dengan pertolongan budak2 promoter celcom....my..my....even gambar tu blur...but saper peduli, aku x....thanks ye adik-adik...

Dan dengan bangganya send an email telling ika and siti about it.....BUT RIGHT NOW ...i'm much more eager to know how and where on earth ika kenal My Sunshine only by giving her seciput information about him...his name...and ika already can tell a lot about him.......Ika, x da ka org dalam KL ni yg hang tak kenal?? hehehe..better u tell me later