Friday, December 28, 2007

Double Joy !!

2 of my younger cousins get married last week in one "kenduri", a history in our family and to our kampung. After some arguments, we sticked to the erlier plan. Konvoi reramai dalam hari yg sama ke 2 rumah pengantin perempuan, satu kat Parit and satu lagi di Ipoh. Dragging along pengantin Ipoh ke Parit dulu. iskk...mmg nampak kelakar, tapi jalan jerlah!!!

Pagi2 lagi, my Mak Ndak called asking me to be Driver Pengantin. Huh, mana ader driver Pengantin org Pompuan? Bawa 2 pengantin Lelaki plaks tuh.....and finally, 13 kereta memulakan perjalanan yg panjang untuk hari itu.....and pesan mak pengantin lelaki pada aku..bawa elok2 keter pengantin yer...ahaksss....terus aku jadi pemandu berhemah hari itu!!!

1st destination, Parit. it took us almost 3 hours to reach rumah pengantin perempuan. Tok Kadi dah tunggu nak dekat 30 min. Can't wait till all cars reached the house, Tok Kadi start lah majlis.....penuh satu umah dengan org tepeng....keter yg baru sampai, semua kena tunggu luar coz dah x muat umah. Cian Tok Kadi tu, try buat lawak ngan my cousin coz dia mmg nervous sangat but i think he just busy to focus on the akad. Selamat!!! semua bersedia nak makan.....tapi yg x bestnya...keter aku ngan 2 keter lagi kena bergegas ke Ipoh yg akan ambik masa dalam 2 jam lagi from Parit coz dah janji pengantin sampai kul 1 petang!

Lupa dengan motto pemandu berhemah...aku pecut bawa the other pengantin coz dia nak kena tukar baju lagi and jam dah nak dekat kul 12. Sampai dalam kul 1 petang, singgah di Masjid berdekatan dengan rumah pengantin perempuan, we stop to change. Yg sampai di masjid tu hanya keter aku ngan keter kakak pengantin. Yong, pandai ikat sampin biar ader bunga kat tepi ni x? asking my cousin. Dushhh...aku x kawen lagilah, and aper yg org pompuan tahu pasal ikat sampin??? semua pandang2 coz yg ader semua perempuan dan kanak2....dengan muka x malu, panggil sorang pak cik yg baru tongkat motor utk pi solat zuhur, minta ikatkan sampin! wallahh....nak jadi rezeki, pakcik tu terror plaks ikat sampin ader bunga2.....hahahaha..sampai kat rumah pengantin pompuan...hanya keter pengantin jer sampai....aku, adik pompuan aku,pengantin dan pengapit pengantin yg baru form 4...pengantin plaks pakai selipar, kasut kat keter lain....dengan kuasa aku sebagai org paling tua masa tuh...aku suruh dia duk jer dalam keter sampai keter lain sampai coz kalau dia turun jer...musti org start kompang.....x naya??? Apapun...semua selamat...walau sampai abis kenduri, hanya 9 kereta selamat sampai, 2 kereta tinggal kat Parit, 1 kereta lambat 1 jam coz sesat and 1 lagi x sampai2.

And esoknya adalah majlis kat belah lelaki (family kitaorang kat Kampung Pauh, Taiping)..hehehe..apapun, semua settle .....Alhamdulillah.

p/s: Teringat dengan keluhan adik perempuan aku dekat cousins kitaorang yg kawen arituh (diaorang sebaya dan hanya adik aku jer yg x kawen lagi dalam batch diorang. Naper korang kawen awal yer? Laki plaks tuh...tinggal aku sorang jer....Aku hanya tersenyum....dalam hati,"Welcome to my club, little sister!"

Friday, December 14, 2007

KUM - DREAM

I should've been blind, to keep me from loving you
Why did I see the beauty inside of you?
It's too late for me, you've already spread inside me
No matter how I try to wash and erase you, you spread all over my body
Slowly this pain makes me weary
I straighten my back, trying not to collapse
The world tells me I shouldn't dream
I don't be given any hope or love from you
I shouldn't be able to dream, so my breathing won't stop
Instead of leaving me here with you, take me away
I didn't dream, I would be able to live
When I start to dream, I start to love
And matter all become harder to bear
I straighten my back, trying not to collapse
The world tells me I shouldn't give
I won't be given any hope or love from you
From wanting you so much, I become greedy
Now I want to be happy
No matter how I try to give up on you
My eyes always stop when they see you, and dream
Slowly this pain makes me weary
I straighten my back, trying not to collapse
The world tells me I shouldn't dream
Any hope or love
Won't be given to me

Ahakssss.....Fuhh ...dushhhhh ...an arrow straight to my heart ..blink.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Back Again From Monsoon Cup 2007

I'm back again to KL after 12 days away to Kuala Terengganu. Huhuhuh..it might be my last event coz next year, Group Marketing will no more exist! erkkk.....

Oh, ya! Terengganu.....Terengganu...besides the event itself, i loved Kuala Terengganu actually. For the sea..... i wish i can have my house there instead.... and i bet, i knew a lot of where to find good food at Terengganu (kalah jie!!...hehhehe) ....and not to forget, new friends so i can plan my next trip there with their help!! anybody, nak pi candat sotong next year? just inform me, k....

and for now, i'm enjoying my time at my "no work anymore" office ...and eargerly waiting for my year end trip ........hohohohoh ........

------Just me and the beach, relaxing-------

Friday, November 16, 2007

Are u Korean Drama/Movie Addicted

Just take a few seconds and answer these questions…



If u answer YES to most of it…Just admit that u are addicted to K-Drama/Movie!

Me?

Hahahaha…Yes, I am! I’m the hardcore! I just take 3-4 hours sleep and watch Korean drama/movie for most of my weekend. My laptop running 24/7 downloading but I’m not checking the fan-sub coz I have website which uploading Korean drama/movie with sub! Do I neglecting my responsibility? Yups, if talking lesser to my sister, and refuse to fulfill any invitation from my friends is consider irresponsible. And for the last question……emhhh….i’m not waiting for 2nd generation chaebol….but who can resist dreaming about one after u watched their drama…..but hey!! Prince charming do exist !!

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Sleepless Night


Somehow through the days
I don't give in
I hide my tears
That wait within
Oh but then through sleepless nights
I cry again
Please end these sleepless nights for me

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Monsoon Cup 2007 Side Recee

Fuhh...salah plan masa....haha...aku hampir teringgal flight aku pagi semalam...muka dah pucat....30 min sebelum flight berlepas...aku baru sampai KL Sentral and gate dah tutup....nasib dapat lepas...pastuh kena pi gate A7 plaks...ujung x ingat..Last call for passenger MH bla..bla to Kuala Terengganu....waaa....aku siap berlari ke gate A7...pedulilah apa org nak kata...bukan aku jumpa diorang dah......nasib sempat....tapi ngan muka merah & tercungap2....aku dengan izin Allah berjaya naik kapal terbang ke Terengganu.....Alhamdulillah....

Laut...Laut...waaaa...bestnya......Breakfast menghadap laut...Lunch menghadap laut....hahah..i'm in world's heaven .....If i can have this kind of life...I will not asked for more....

So, i will be in Terengganu for a week end of this month.....insyallah. Will learn something new, Sailing!!! So, Monsoon Cup 2007....Wait for me !!!



Friday, November 02, 2007

Aku Marah!!!

Aku rasa marah betoi!! Marah pagi2 nih!!! Aku tension ngan Rezzen......waaaa......aku tinggal 1 paper jer utk habiskan MBA aku yg dah dragging skit punya lama...lama x hingat !!! Aku mmg hangat ngan depa dari sebelum puasa....pastuh dia bley beritahu aku....last paper tu aku leh ambik Feb 2008!!!! Feb 2008???? waaaaaa........Gilos...Gilos....Gilossss

Friday, October 26, 2007

Aidilfitri 2007

Ini tahun ke 27 aku sambut Raya.....Harapnya masih diizinkan Allah untuk sambut Ramadhan dan Aidilfitri tahun hadapan.Emhhh...basically, raya tahun ni mmg sama jer ngan tahun sebelumnya......Tapi yg different skit ialah :

1. Tahun ni mak aku telah membeli set sofa baru yg agak "gah" tapi asyik bertutup ngan kain coz kucing kat umah asyik nak cakar..hehehe...x sesuai!! Langsir x jahit yg baru coz anak dara mak hanya sampai kat umah 2 hari sebelum raya.

2. Adik laki aku yg 2nd last kena marah ngan ayah aku 2 hari sebelum raya coz x balik straight ke umah dari hostel.....iskk..isskkk..merayap ngan kekawan dia kat ipoh

3. Tapi mamat tu jugalah yg tiba2 tahu anyam ketupat!! huhuhu....bukan apa, keluarga aku semua x reti anyam ketupat except ketupat palas....so, tahun ni kami ader ketupat nasi atas meja ngan kuah kacang..heheh

4. Tahun ni aku beli bunga api ngan mercun, so excitedlah kitaorang main memalam raya tuh....ngalah budak kecik!

5. Tahun ni banyak kuih raya coz aku ngan adik aku banyak main "tunjuk" kat KL.

6. Open House kat umah aku di raya ke-2 (mmg tradisi) ada terima kunjungan sanak saudara yg jauh yg tahun sebelumnya x pernah datang

7. Tapi yg teruknya ialah tahun ni, tiba2 makcik2 aku ngan pakcik aku even cousins aku sebok tanya bila nak makan "nasi minyak" aku...huhuhu...depa tahu x aku mmg x masak nasi minyak raya2 ni..hahaha.....cis2...aku tahulah cousin2 aku yg baya aku semua dah ader anak, yg tahun ni ngan next year nak kawen semua batch2 adik2 aku....huh!! tekanan btoi!

Ini gambo raya kami tahun ni ....







"Ayah aku tgk gambar ni dan tanya..agak2 bila nak tambah sorang lagi dalam gambar ni? hehee..aku ngan tersengihnya....nanti no. jadi ganjil...x lawa!!! dushhhh"

Monday, October 08, 2007

Buka Pose 2007 -Cyberview Lodge-

Rasanya ini tahun ke-2 geng2 kitaorang berkumpul untuk berbuka pose .....last year, buat di rumah Aini.....mostly semuanya ada..tapi tahu ni, nampaknya hanya kami berlima sahaja.....Aku + adik beradik, jie and family, Farah and family, ika and siti....Punya cari tempat nak berbuka pose, end up, kitaorang berkumpul kat Cyberview Lodge.....not bad...the food was good..the view..muhahaha..best2...lain kali boleh pergi lagi.....sembang+ makan + melayan kerenah bebudak kecik aka anak jie + Farah....lupa nak snap gambo....ini jer yg ader utk kenangan.....


- Fahim & Muadz....Sugar collecter !! -


- Hai! Saya Ziyad -


- 2 Ibu orang + 1 Wife to be + 2 Single Mingle Lady -

Thursday, October 04, 2007

......................

Busannya...Busannya!!!! Khamis, Jumaat.....Isnin, Selasa, Rabu....waaaa...Boleh mati busan nih!!!!!

Monday, October 01, 2007

Shopping Raya!!!

Huhuhu...ramainya orang!!! Panas plaks tuh!!! Sedapnya kalau dapat minum teh-O-ais!!...hahahah...dugaan di bulan pose + galak pi shopping raya last sunday!!!

After 30 min keluar awal sebab x dapat jawab 2 sub-soalan paper Entrepreneur last saturday....so, kira nak lepas geram pi shopping raya on sunday. So, pergilah dengan adikku dan Fiza, opismate. Park keter kat opis, naik train pi Masjid Jamek, maka bermulalah journey kitaorg menyelit dan berebut dengan org2 ramai yg mempunyai tujuan yg sama...Dari masjid jamek ke Jalan TAR, Pertama , SOGO...aduhhh..semuanya diredah. At the end of the day, aku manage beli 1 selendang bling2 yg nak di match ngan baju bling2 aku ...angkut 2 tudung bawal and earing...heh!!! ader kaitan ker? Tapi yg pastinya, x leh lawan fiza yg telah mengangkut hampir 8 helai tudung!! Hang nak jual balik ka Fiza??

Pengajaran yg aku dapat.....Baju raya kedua aku akan di beli di tempat ber aircond!!! Yes!!!

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Just 2 Steps & I already Stumbled



Do i need to stop or just ignore it and making another step?

"Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off the goal." -Hannah More

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Sedey dan sedikit terkilan

Budak-budak tak balik ka puasa ni?

huhuhu..itu pertanyaan ayah aku kat mak aku...anak dia sorang pun x balik bulan pose ni......ini 1st time aku x balik lansung masa bulan pose ni...balik raya terus nanti...bukan aper...hujung minggu asyik ader kelas and after that ader final exam.....

tapi xpa...aku akan cuti raya panjang....thanks to my bos yg memaksa aku ambik cuti gaksss coz kalau aku x ambik...hanya aku sorang yg kijer kat opis aku nanti...hehee..pelik kan? tapi ini kes benar.......

Monday, September 17, 2007

I'm making small steps to someone world


I’m making small steps today…..to be in someone world……not sure about the consequences… But pretty proud on being able to do it….Someone world may be too big as it seen but too small to be in. But, I belief in fate…..It will be when it’s destine to be…..and if not, just let it be and move on.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

@#$%^&*

Lately.........

I'm Missing This...


and

Wondering about this.....



Goshhhhh...I'm thinking too much!!!

Friday, August 24, 2007

I’m extremely SAD


I ATE THE WHOLE REGULAR PIZZA BY MYSELF, YESTERDAY!!! FOLLOWED BY 6 PIECES OF SUSHI.... I WAS SAD, THAT'S WHY!! EXTREMELY SAD!!! AND I'M PISSED OFF!! URGHHHH

Thursday, August 23, 2007

i feel like eating...but i already overweight!!!

huhuhuhu...for almost 27 years breathing......never in my entire life till this year that people call me "gemuk". Selalunya org akan kata, kurusnya, kacang panjang, playwood...entah aper2 lagi arrr yg refer pada kurus!!!

And never in my entire life till this year have that i really concerned about my weight!!! huhuhuh...i may look like a person with no weight problem!!! But who knows dengan keaadaan sekarang (tembam sikit), sebenarnya aku dah lebih 10 KG dari berat badan yg sepatutnya...hahahah

I care.....but how? i rather go for exercise than cutting down my food or eating my favourite food....no way i'm going to eat only bread, fruit, salad...hahahah..no...no...no....Siapa lagi nak treasure those good food!!!

Exercise...i rather say i have no time aka truly deeply "MALAS" ....

So, HOW?

Can't all those fats just disappear like they always did previously....

Worry...but dun care in the same time... HUHUHUHU

Monday, August 20, 2007

Aper lagi ek?

Aper lagi yg aku suka bila buat exhibition nih? Emhhhh...coz aku boleh jumpa orang yang aku nak jumpa......macam last week......WORLD BADMINTON CHAMPIONSHIP 2007

Walaupun event tu mmg busan dari segi sales...tapi' i'm not a sales person anymore!!!! just assisting sales person ....HEAVEN!!!

Apa yg bestnya??

1. Boleh masuk parking stadium FREE and parking sebelah dewan coz ada sticker Secratariat kat keter
2. Boleh masuk dalam stadium dan tgk game bila2 masa sebab ader exhibitor pass
3. Tgk LIVE game badminton dan tahu saper pemenangnya sebelum org lain tgk paper esoknya atau berita malam !!!
4. I almost forgot about the excitement of watching badminton and knowing the player after Thomas Cup 1992...huhuhu...can feel it again...
5. Nampak dgn dekat but malas nak jumpa pemain2 badminton...Nampak Rashid Sidek, Misbun Sidek, Bertukar senyum dengan Roslin Hashim..ahaksss...Korean player yg aku lupa namanya....Wong Choon Han, Kean keat (heh, lupa nama penuh and to spell) and others....

Apa yg tinggal tanda tanya....

Aku belek2 pass card aku tuh....Selain dgn pass aku tuh, aku boleh masuk Arena, and aper ntah lagi...aku leh masuk Locker Room....ISKKKK..Maksudnya aku leh pi dalam tempat persalinan pemain ker??? auchhh!!! RUGINYA!!!

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Can a broken heart really heal??

Received a message from a friend, he just broke off with his girl. I knew he must be hurt. And i knew that whatever i said will not going to fix the condition.

People will always said that “everything will be ok” to comfort someone. But when will be that everything become ok? How soon? I hurt now!!! What is actually needed to be done now? Not tomorrow, not when everything will become ok!!!

I cried with him, that's the only thing, I’ve done. I don’t really know either what he need the most now. But I remembered when I’m once in his condition, I just want somebody to know and listen. I just want someone knew that I’m scared, hurt, angry, embarrassed…….And maybe, we need that someone to replace “that person” who will have no idea of what we felt after the broke off.

Boyfriend, sorry for not being a good friend for you during your hard time. Just cry, if you want to, just piss off if you felt to. Just win her for a last time even how stupid people will look upon you. But if not, you must learn to live without her. We are actually the one who decides what kind of life we want to have with whatever HE prepared for us. Just take your time!!! But dun forget to “wake up”!!!

P/s: To my dearest friends, thank you once again for being there during my hardest time back then, now and in the future.

Monday, July 09, 2007

Tidakkkkkkkkkk

Aku tertekan...tertekan.......impianku musnah!!!!!

waduh...waduh......sakitnya hati gue!!! Apa salah gue? mungkin aku patut salahkan Raja Nazrin sebab nak kawen sangat bulan May ari tuh sampai SBP Ipoh event kena postponed......mungkin aku patut salahkan KTAK kerna pilih tarikh 21 July 2007 utk tarikh baru.....Mungkin aku patut salahkan bos aku sebab suruh aku take over projek tu tiba2.......huhuhu.....sudah nasib aku.....kerana semuanya ini, plan aku utk snorkelling plus shopping di terengganu minggu ni terpaksa di tunda ke bulan depan....bulan depan???? bulan depan pun x leh janji!!!!

huhuhuh...maybe as alternative, bley pi Aquaria and shopping kat jalan TAR!!!!

Monday, July 02, 2007

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Missing Him......

Too tired now for pretending to be strong
It was pain to hold back tears
It was hard to act nothing was wrong
Coz everything actually wrong
But reality will forced you to accept the fact
Once he left your world, he will never returned
So, once awhile
I cried slowly, missing him
Took my own sweet time remembering his smile
Collecting strength I need from his love that once was mine
If tears can swept away this burden
And time will heal
I wonder why, I’m missing him still



*SSA*

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Singapore...Illegal trip

At last...the big event pun tiba!!!

Being a person yg di "seludup" bawa masuk ke Singapore dgn alasan utk exposure to international exhibition results in :

1. No air travel, only land
2. No advance

Huhuhu...despite all "twisted feeling", half of me really eager to set my foot once again to Singapore after almost 20 years.

Pedulikan 2 sebab "kesukaran" di atas, dengan kebenaran dari bos, aku dgn bangganya cuma menfully utilisedkan semua elaun yg ada ke tahap maksimum especially to balas dendam coz kena naik bas pi Singapore.....managed to booked the most expensive bus ticket, RM 139 pertrip and total transportation elaun will be RM280. HEHHEE..Ini bus mahal tuhhhh!!!

Business Class Airebus


Comparison between Executive and Business Class


On 17th June and 20th June, Aku akan menggantikan mat salleh dalam gambar tuh

Monday, June 11, 2007

The Road i Have Traveled

The road I have Traveled.
Bridges I have crossed.
I've gone the extra mile,
I've come to many stops.
I had a few road blocks,
toward what I thought,
could be the end.
But had to be brought back
a mile or two again.
So when closure comes,
I do know what it will mean.
I'll finally have peace of mind,
I'll be able to feel,think, and breathe
I probably won't believe it.
I'll think it is all a dream.
And although the journey will have ended.
I'll never forget What I've learned along the way,
or how I learned to take it day by day

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Huhuhuhu........Pekan

i went to Pahang twice dalam tempoh tak sampai sebulan....huhuhu....seminggu plaks tuh duduk kat sana setiap trip....and claimed T&T x pernah sebanyak nih...lebih 1500 - 2000 hinggit tiap trip.....x pernah duk hotel macam dah umah sendiri..pekerja hotel pun dah kenal..huhuhu....jumpa staff and reseller Pahang yg sama...so, sekarang dah kamcing.....dapat makan lebih banyak food yg sedap kat Kuantan & Pekan (Jalan-Jalan cari makan Pahang)...

Tapi yg best pi Pahang kali ni ialah ...aku jumpa org TNB yg aku jumpa last trip, tapi kali ni kami exchange phone no. ....and macam mana ntah terjumpa dia sekali lagi masa makan malam....maybe Kuantan kecil sangat.....hahaha....hahahaha.....kecil ke? atau ada jodoh?..muahahah

and.....jumpa seorang exhibitor yg muka dia seiras DAWO....cuma versi L size ...huhuhu....bersihnya muka dia!!!

and satu berita yg tak tahu nak category kan as berita baik atau buruk....setiap org ada rahsianya....dan mungkin mereka mempunyai alasan tersendiri untuk berahsia...tapi sampai bila rahsia boleh di simpan? sedangkan org lain dah mula menceritakan....sedangkan org tu sendiri masih berahsia kepada kawan sendiri...huhuhu...mungkin aku juga akan berahsia jika berada di tempat dia...apa pun, aku harap yg terbaik buat dia....

okes, pahang......tata for now !!!

Monday, May 21, 2007

My Life.....

I'm back from South Korea after almost a week doing something i love the most, travelling. To know the people, their culture, food, and interesting places.......i wished i can do more. i'm going to missed korea, but ironically i have no intention to be there again dalam masa terdekat ni. Kalau nak pergi pun, pi sendiri2....tak yah pakai package....Dalam hati, bergolak2 keinginan nak travel balik...but long holiday dalam masa terdekat ni is almost impossible!!!

Once the flight touched down the KLIA, i felt butterflies in my stomach....a lot of it..hahaha....and starting at that time, i'm struggling to cope with my job and study and personal things. Bermula dengan projek Pekan Fest at end of May yg perlu diambil alih, SMIDEX at early June....Final Exam yg baru lepas....Individual assignment yg perlu dihantar before 26th May, and out me go for outstation again for a week to Pekan Pahang, next week. Maybe i need to change my luggage..it almost worn out!!

Thursday, May 03, 2007

I'm back and will be off again.....

Fuhhh....after more than 2 weeks tak berada di KL, have a strange feelings when i drove to the office today, felt like i'm not belongs here.....

Yupss...my worked at MSAM 2007, Kuantan. 6 days there, make me bored. nothing much at Kuantan but Ida Tengku ada....waaa..lama sungguh x jumpa dia....1st night, after worked, we all pi umah mak dia.....hahha..mana tahu, dapat makan malam and dapat citer hantu...skit punya meremang bulu roma aku dengar citer mak dia...lagi horror dari "Jgn Pandang Belakang"....masa balik nak dekat kul 1 malam tu, haha...seperti yang Kak Long dia cakap, aku dapat "welcome greetings" bila kereta aku berbau nasi hangit dalam 5 minit right after tinggalkan umah mak dia....and last day, aku pi tengok wayang kat Megamall Kuantan, Wild Hogs after makan dekat Tanjung Lumpur....hahhaa...sikit punya jauh org KL tgk wayang!! almost 4 am, baru balik umah and tido and straight kul 9 pagi, aku bangun and drove dari Kuantan ke Taiping....fuhh....1st time drive lama and jauh camtuh sorang2.....

Taiping.....jika tidak aku kena gantikan Cory meeting di Penang pada 30 Apr ari tuh..musti aku x leh balik Kampung...waaa..rindunya Tepeng!!!! lepak2 abiskan cuti panjang....

and now, while writing this blog, i just have another 5 days to be in KL before i take another long journey away from KL for a week....

Yes!! Yes!!! Feel Like a Bird....

Friday, April 20, 2007

I'm out of KL for a week!!!

Kuantan .....Wait for me ahhhh!!! (working aka leisure mood). That's why i love doing this kind of job... i work and in the same time boleh jalan-jalan makan angin!!!

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Bertanya pada diri......Beban yang dicari

Peristiwa semalam membuatku berfikir dan bertanya pada diri sendiri....

Takut disakiti dan dibebani oleh sesuatu....maka meminta pada Allah akan dijauhkan darinya....Allah memperkenannya....tapi hati masih meronta-ronta bertanya, jikalah, jika....keadaan sebaliknya......

Tamaknya manusia, tamaknya aku....Meminta dijauhkan beban tapi jauh disudut hati masih mahu memikulnya.....Meminta luka dihati disembuhkan, tapi masih mencari sebab untuk melukannya kembali......

Manusia amat sukar difahami......aku juga tak memahami diri sendiri.....

Monday, April 16, 2007

Singapore ........aghhhhh

I used to be happy and excited to be in Singapore for our International Exhibition. Still felt the same till last 2 weeks. But not anymore....not anymore. Not when i knew the truth hidden besides the new arrangement....not anymore when i saw his expression...i can imagine myself stuck with those peoples in place where i can't simply run away when i need to.Feel like swimming in a bowl full of leech!!! yarkssss....eiiiiii

aghhhhh.....if i can choose, i rather say no to Singapore!!!!!!

But, when i forced myself to see in positive way....Singapore, i can learn more there..i should fully utilized this opportunity..next year, maybe no more....So, just put aside those people...anyhow, who the heck are they to affect me???

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Jadual hujung minggu

Yes......what else to say about my weekend schedule

8 - 9 April Set-up Larian Mesra Polis, MBA class
14 - 15 April PIKOM, KLCC
21 - 22 April MBA Class , Fly to Kuantan for MSAM till 27 April
28 - 29 April PINTAR, Penang (not sure)...arap x jadi
5 - 6 May MBA Class, aka Presentation
12 -13 May Yahoo.....Over the Sea
19 May Final Exam, waaaaa

i'm so popular and fully booked by my work and study life!!!
............LIFE IS LIKE DRAWING WITHOUT AN ERASER................

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Yahooooo.......Malay Mail Big Walk x yah bukak kaunter

Yahooooo.......Cayalah ngan bos baru aku nih...dia telah berjaya membuatkan mgt atas bersetuju utk biar Celcom jer take leads on Malay Mail Big Walk...no Group Marketing participation.....it means that i can go to Penang for PINTAR exhibition!!! Balik Kampung mehhhhh!!!!! Best...Best...Best...Thanks Martin!!!

Emhhh....tapi boleh ker aku nyibuk kat sana ek? Itu projek si Cory?????

Monday, April 09, 2007

Dating with Nuruddin.....

Missed my first Operation Management class due to contractor delay. Ape ker heinya contractor tu...janji kul 9.30 pagi tapi datang kul 11.....Siapa BOS..sape Kuli? Tapi sebenarnya...malas jugaks nak pi kelas ari tuhh....rushing dari set-up kat IPK, Jalan Hang Tuah....pastuh pi kelas sampai malam..muahaha...busan..busann.....

Kul 5 set-up selesai......balik umah ngan malasnya memikirkan xda org kat umah and xda rancangan tv yg best petang sabtu.....terus call Ayu, dgn plan nak nganggu rehat family best friend sendiri.....hahhaha....But the main objective ialah:
1. Nak dating ngan Nuruddin
2. Nak basmi virus dalam Laptop ngan bantuan Amin

hahhaa...geramnya tgk Nuruddin......Lain betoi dari 2 bulan lepas.....tapi yg x berubah.....still suka tido...tapi aper lagi yg dia tahu kan...itu mmg kijer dia sekarang....huhhuh...satu lagi....dia dah pandai sembang.....

Inilah partner datingku sabtu lepas.......best gaks dating ngan org lebey muda ni...muahahah


"Terasa tuanya.....kena buat whitening kulit nihhhh - muka baru balik kijer tgh panas sehari suntuk"

Friday, March 30, 2007

Bagaimana aku melalui hari semalam - 29 March 2007

Hampeh !!! i think that's the best word to describe what i had going through yesterday.....hahahaha......started my horrible day with a stupid event and its a disaster coz i worked like an idiot (it makes me think twice about my existence in KL) ........and end the event of the day with a broken heart, my crush to that person came to a full stop.....hehehe..i dun know either why it must be happened in the same day and had no relation to that stupid event!!! But its true.....that girl must be his girlfriend!!! "jom balik", he pelawa....By just visualized walking from the convention centre to suria KLCC with both of them......Nooo..its not a good idea.......gilossss....i rejected his "excellence" proposal and choose to do a shopping instead and managed to spend RM300++..........That's the only good things happened that day ........hahahah..

After all.......tomorrow will be another day!!! Yesterday only a history....

Monday, March 26, 2007

Not Normal...

I wish ...wooooo, I wish....everything went normal..my..my.....that holiday didn't help!!!!!! i thought everything went well......started with a heavy rain when we are leaving KK on friday....flight asyik langgar awan dan landing dengan "bagusnya", it caused me a great headache for a day.....running to Bed's house on night to complete last minute assignment..managed to get only3 hours sleep ...kemas bilik yg berselerak dgn barang2 yg still x unpack.......balas dendam tido.....and went to work today....starting with unexpected greed and smile from that person who i tried so hard not to be face to face with (it makes me smile foolishly and cursed myself for it in the same time)...and the rest of my day will be in doom after restructure meeting.....it's only 12 am and i felt like forever.

I'm not praying hard enaugh!!!!

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

I'm Leaving....

I'm leaving for good...i really hope when i return back...everything is going to be as normal as i wish........i'm leaving KL....I'm leaving a person i'm suppose to be apart off......i'm leaving peoples who start asking me questions which i dun want to answer.......

3 days........i wish i can leave everything but not my assignment!!! how can i forgot that i need to submit it a day after i'm coming back from KK .....arggggghhhhhhhhhhh

Thursday, March 15, 2007

If you go away......

If you go away on this summer's day,
Then you might as well take the sun away
All the birds that flew in the summer sky
When our love was new and our hearts were high
When the day was young and the nights were long
And the moon stood still for the night bird's song
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.
But if you stay, I'll make you a day
Like no day has been,
or will be again
We'll sail on the sun,
we'll ride on the rain
And talk to the trees and worship the wind
But if you go, I'll understand
Leave me just enough love to fill up my hand
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.
If you go, as I know you will
You must tell the world to stop turning
Till you return again, if you ever do,
For what good is love without loving you?
Can I tell you now, as you turn to go
I'll be dying slowly till the next hello
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.
But if you stay, I'll make you a night
Like no night has been, or will be again
I'll sail on your smile, I'll ride on your touch
I'll talk to your eyes that I love so much
But if you go, I won't cry
Though the good is gone from the word goodbye
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.
If you go away, as I know you must
There is nothing left in this world to trust
Just an empty room, full of empty space
Like the empty look I see on your face
I'd have been the shadow of your shadow
If you might have kept me by your side
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away..
_Mukhsin OST_

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

A word from boyfriend.......

Got an email from my penang boyfriend.....hehehe...bertanya kabar....and he didn't forget to asked soalan "cepu emas" ...... and i start mengadu pada dia, how lagging i am on this matter and how hard to find a good man here in KL...... his words comfort me .....

"For your good heart, i am sure u will get someone good. Just wait and pray, and leave things to the one up there....take care my girlfriend"

Take care boyfriend.......i hope your relationship going well....hehehe

Till we meet again and it's going to be pretty soon......miss ya, darling.

Monday, March 12, 2007

Cinta Pertama Mukhsin …Kisah ringkas yg mendalam ertinya

Yasmin Ahmad cuba membawa satu cerita dalam segmen hidup manusia yang mungkin dilupakan. Cinta pertama, atau sebenarnya cinta monyet (berdasarkan cerita ini). Ramai yang pernah mengalaminya, tapi mungkin tidak pernah mengenangnya.

Pemandangan, cerita berkenaan kehidupan kampung, permainan semasa budak-budak.....mengingatkan kembali zaman semasa kanak-kanak yang amat mengembirakan.......Cerita tanpa dialog yang banyak masih mampu mengungkap maksud yang tersirat.

" Apabila orang bertanyakan tentang cinta pertama, sekurang-kurangnya aku mempunyai ceritaku sendiri. Walau jika diingatkan sekarang, tidak banyak yang mampu diimbas kembali tetapi ia masih mampu mengukir senyuman di bibir".

Thursday, March 08, 2007

WHen YoU FaLL iN lOVe wItH a wroNg PErSoN .....

Have u come across this kind of situation? There is a guy u knew that he definitely do not fit your long list of a guy you dream about. And in the same time there is a guy who 96% fit into your list and when you see him at the first place, you knew he is the one. But your heart seems to betray and making you confuse when it welcomes the wrong person. It seems that you choose a dark and empty road which leads you to nowhere. Leaving a highway with a lot of light splashing on it and you know that when you follow that road, it will lead you to a safe and nice place. Do we need to follow the heart or the mind? Is there any possibility that this wrong person can turn to be right? Does its really true that human tend to make mistake? Or actually choose to make one? Or in our life actually there is no white or black but only mixture of it, grey………

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

I Missed my Flight to Korea!!!

Korea.....waaaa.....i missed the flight...hahahah.....

My buddy ika went to Korea last night. After a long preparation, money, korean language and not to forget a korean pen-pal, ika flew to Korea with a high hopes. i'm supposed to join her but with all the responsibilities in Malaysia, project, assignment, night class, weekend class......i just can sent her off with a prayer that she had a safe journey and a happy time.

Ika, dun forget to snap as much pictures as you can and of course to include "uppa" pictures in it. And bring me something that i can't find it in Malaysia but only in Korea ( u know what i mean...wink).

and till next week before she come back, i just can keep watching all korean dramas and imagine myself to be there.........

Korea....wait for me!!! Aja! Aja! Fighting!!!!

Friday, February 23, 2007

HAPUS AKU

Ku tuliskan kesedihan
Semua tak bisa kau ungkapkan
Dan kita kan bicara dengan hatiku
Buang semua puisi
Antara kita berdua
Kau bunuh dia sesuatu
Yang kusebut itu cinta
Yakinkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…
Sadarkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Amin Junior is coming to earth!!!

hehehe...Gembira sungguh bila Amin Junior lahir !! he's so cute... so little...sampai takut nak pegang dia ....... x sabar nak tunggu dia besar sedikit, so boleh tgk lesung pipit dia coz dia asyik tido jer sekarang....hahaha....agak2 lesung pipit dia sama x macam Anuar Zain!!!

opsss...i'm talking like he's my own baby..hehe...Tahniah Ayu & Bapa Amin dengan kelahiran anak sulung u all... Aku tumpang gembira!!

Precious little boy, Nuruddin Amin ...... nice meeting you yesterday .....Welcome to this fantastic world especially when ur auntie Siha is around..muahahah ( for sure Ayu bimbang dgn ayat ini!!! ..hehehe)

Monday, February 12, 2007

Le Tour De Langkawi 2007

I'm so tired !!! But still x leh nak ambik book off ari ni coz the other 2 team members dah awal2 cuti. Its been my 1st outstation kat sini..... 10 ari x der kat opis, berjalan dari kulim, Kota Bahru, Kuala Terengganu, Chukai, Karak, Seremban and back to Dataran Merdeka. Muka hitam terbakar tak hingat, x cukup tido coz setiap malam just tido kul 2-3 pagi and bangun balik kul 6 pagi....standby at booth tgh panas terik, kul 5, terus chow drive pi next station yg selalunya kena drive 3-4 jam.....routine setiap hari selama 10 hari.

Anyhow, its a new experiance...even bab x cukup tido, kijer tgh panas terik di hari cuti dah biasa..tapi straight for more than a week and berjalan jauh tu, its a brand new!!

But i loved it! i loved this kind of job ..... but somehow, deep inside my heart i realised something. Sometimes you need to sacrifice what you love the most coz it might not suit your belief or norms.

And something scared me the most......something i should not even dare to think about......but now, i felt that i already involved...i hoped its not true....i hoped it will be swept away by time.

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

I'm 27 !!

27 ........... I turned 27 on the 27th days in the year of 2007........what a nice combination.....It will be a lucky year..." I hope this year something good* will be happen, murah rezeki, diberkati Allah selalu...bla..bla..." among list of wishes i got. Thank You, guys.

However, i start my day, forgetting my own birthday. Reminded by sms from my best friend. i guessed when we are older, we are not so eager, excited and waited for it anymore. Mungkin kerana ia hanya akan mengingatkan kita betapa setahun lagi masa menginjak dan umur meningkat, setahun lagi masa berlalu mungkin di sia-siakan. Or maybe bacuse we used to it, it just another year pass by, nothing will change.

But when i drove back from my class to Ika's house on the late afternoon of that "i turned 27 on the 27th days in the year of 2007", i told myself how lucky i am for still breathing on that day. Thanks God for that. Thanks for His mercy, aku dapat menikmati kesenangan dunia ini, ibu-bapa, kaum keluarga, rakan-rakan, pekerjaan dan segala-segalanya.

Tapi adakah aku sudah cukup berterima kasih di atas pemberian Allah ini? Adakah aku sudah cukup menghargai pemberian Allah ini? 26 tahun yg telah berlalu adakah telah aku sia-siakan?

......................i cried.....................................

i wish i can do more...i will do more, insyallah.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Pencarian Mencari Teman Hidup Seperti Perjalanan Menaiki Keretapi Tanah Melayu...ahahah

Mengapa aku melihatnya sebegitu? Bukan kereta atau bas express, coz tiada org baru yg kita akan jumpa sepanjang perjalanan except masa pi toilet atau makan di R&R....Bukan kapal terbang coz perjalanan terlalu pantas dan tidak berenti2.

Impian memiliki teman hidup seperti stesen akhir Keretapi Tanah Melayu kat utara nun....dan memulakannya dari stesen di selatan. Sepanjang perjalanan yg panjang dan pasti lama itu, pasti kita akan bertemu dengan ramai orang dan mungkin muka baru di setiap stesen keretapi itu berhenti. Ada yg kebetulan duduk disebelah kita, berkenalan dan memulakan perbualan, serasi. Jika teman disebelah seperti ini, tentu perjalanan tidak lagi rasa bosan, tapi malangnya teman yg serasi terpaksa turun di stesen yg seterusnya. Hati akan kecewa dan terkilan. Tetapi keretapi tidak akan berhenti lama menunggu kita, perjalanan mesti diteruskan. Mahu tidak mahu, kita juga harus meneruskannya. Menanti teman duduk di sebelah yg baru.

Adakala teman duduk di sebelah hanya membantu diri, tidur. Adakalanya pula amat menjengkelkan hati hingga kita pula yg mencari tempat duduk kosong lain untuk melarikan diri. Adakalanya duduk berseorangan tanpa penumpang baru hingga stesen berikutnya.

Dari stesen ke stesen, berharap akan berjumpa dengan teman duduk disebelah yg serasi dan akan bersama hingga sampai ke stesen akhir bersama. Tapi ada kemungkinankah stesen akhir bukan setakat di Utara Malaysia? Bagaimana jika disambung hingga ke hujung dunia? Memikirkan begitu, hati jadi gundah ..........

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

BLUR


I wish i can cry, i wish i can run, i wish i can shout out loud, i wish i can resist, i wish i can understand, i wish to be far away from here ...but yet i can't and i become blur and confuse.

Friday, January 05, 2007

........The Smile Has Left My Eyes......

There was someone told me that i'm like a star, a bright star. He asked me to be his shining star on his sky. But after a while, he told me that he had to make a hard decision by letting me go. The reason was he felt that he is making me sad and he scared if i'm not as bright as i am before if he continued keeping me under his sky. So, he said goodbye and told me, "Awak, i will be greedy if i still want to make you mine coz you will shine brighter on other's sky". Man, i think you are wrong. A star actually will shine better when it closed to you. How come it can be bright if you let the star away from you.